NOT AN UPDATE (I'm sorry)

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by swaggybih

by swaggybih

Lol where tf do I even start?

So I guess this is my update? Not exactly a come back but recently, i've been seeing a lot of people worried and asking where i've been since I used to update super regularly and I kinda dropped off the face of the earth.

Funny enough, I didn't realize how many "girl where are you? Are you ok?" Comments there were until now.

I'm sorry for not responding or updating ya'll on myself. I just didn't see the comments.

So here's basically what happened since ya'll deserve an explanation (nothing crazy, mostly my fault):

I always told myself I wouldn't be one of those authors who left her story unfinished.

When I started my first book, I was full of ideas, boy crazy (deadass thought i'd marry Anthony Reeves i'm so embarrassed rn) and excited to share what I had. I wrote about 24 chapters of that book before I started posting to make sure I could end it. which is why it was so easy to complete.

I had no intention of starting another book.

When I realized that people wanted another one I decided i'd start it.

Bad decision.

So here I was. Starting another book with no ideas and 0 direction.

To top it off, what started off as a fun hobby started to feel like a job. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely loved the support. I appreciate you guys so much. But at the same time having people yell "update" at you 24/7 makes you feel like you have to.

I love the update comments cause they show me that you guys want more but they're bittersweet ya know. After awhile I felt drained. I started a book that I just didn't wanna finish and I wished I could just take it back. but I couldn't....people had already seen it.

I kinda just...logged off Wattpad for a long long long time.

During that time, Tiktok changed a lot and honestly so did I. If i'm being honest a lot of people who started this journey with me in the beginning probably aren't even here anymore cause we all get over our Tiktok crushes eventually.

As of right now (much to yall's disappointment probably) I have no intention of completing my books. I'm not feeling them AT ALL. When I wrote them I thought I sounded so cool and ngl I think my characters sound A lot more mature than most in the tiktok fanfics (no offence) but they're still not cool. They sound kinda embarrassing to me.

If i'm being honest, if my books weren't as popular as they are, I would most likely just delete them rn and pretend it never happened.

That's also the reason why I haven't answered the messages requesting to translate my books (i'm sorry for that too) I just don't see a point in translating an incomplete story that probably won't be completed.

I may come back and write other things but honestly idk what fandoms to write for everyone be toxic asf like do I really wanna join anything?

THE POINT IS:

I'm ok

Thank you guys so much for the support, concern, everything.

I appreciate you guys so much

If yall wanna talk to me, i'm here...kinda?

Still won't be super active but I won't be gone like I was

~ Trouble