Unakulle En Thedal - Heaven Sent 💫

Part 5

Meyshna was getting a little restless while trying to speak, she paused so many times but was persistent on letting Ashwin know what's on her mind.

Meyshna: that's not even the worst news yet..Rahul and I had a a huge argument, we went on about a month not talking to each other, which is very unusual. Abi solirpanu nenaikiren we are really close, daily pesama paakama iruka maatom even college mudinjum kooda we were in touch, we talked every day and met whenever possible. Edhuku argue panomnu kooda enaku nyabagam illa, after a month, en bday wish panrathukaga call panirundhan, that's when we talked back, appayum enaku avan mela kovam irundhadhu..seriya pesala. Birthday mudinji 2 days aachu, avan evlovo try paniyum naa seriya pesala, appo dhan avan kelambi vandhan enna pakrathukaga..and all this happened

Ashwin was patiently listening to what Meyshna is saying. He didn't want to interrupt, he wanted her to let it out and then feel better instead of keeping it all to herself. Even when Meyshna stopped thinking she's going on and on, Ashwin told her to just continue and he's ready to listen.

Meyshna then continued.

Meyshna: ipdi accident aachune terinjone, I was panicking not knowing what to do, few seconds ku thigachi poi I sat..and then called Abi and Vignesh, pesa kooda mudiyala, I was crying so badly, somehow I managed to tell them and they tried reaching Rahul. Someone answered Rahul's call and told he's being brought to hospital. Poganuma venama nu kooda enaku therila, I was not ready to see him, not ready to see he's like that because of me but Abi pester panni enna kootitu pona. Hospital ku ponom and went to meet him..I'm entering his room and I saw the doctor turning towards us with a sigh. My instinct wasn't right, I didn't want my mind's thought to happen. We went towards Rahul and the doctor said, "I'm sorry, we tried our best". I didn't even hear that clearly, I was just looking at Rahul, asking him to wake up saying that "I'm here, wake up, don't do this to me". But the moment when I heard Vignesh screaming "thirumbi va macha" is when everything started to hit me, I looked at him in disbelief, not ready to hear what he's going to say. "Nambala vittutu poitan di, edhume pesama kooda poitan paaru, enna ennalam plan panirundhan theriyuma, yen da ipdi pona" said Vignesh. Enaku enna pesradhu, enna nadakudhunu theriyala, edhume yethukura nelamaila illa, suthi enna nadakudhunum therila...I was just standing there without saying or reacting anything. Ennala azhuga kooda mudiyala..

Meyshna was tearing as she's saying this to Ashwin.

Ashwin: it's ok, cry it out..naa edhum nenaikalam maaten..let your feelings be as it is

Meyshna: imagine..someone who's very dear to you, whom you have fought with for a silly reason, who tried their best to talk to you is now no more. Ellame konja nerathula, 10 mins munnadi pesitu irundha oru aal ippo illa, unga kannu minnuku dhan irukuranga aana avunga naala pesa mudiyala, neenga ennanamo try panringa aana oru response kooda illa. Ippo dhana pesitu irundhanga ippo yen ipdi aaitanga, ipdinu evlo thoughts odum unga mind la..and who will you blame? That person? The speed he drove? The fate? Or yourself? Kandipa you will end up blaming yourself..ella events a yum onna serthu ungala dha neenga blame panuvinga and ivlo thoughts unga mind la poitu irukum bodhu idhayum worst aakura maari situation varumnu edhirpapingala? Certainly not..aana adhudhan enaku nadandhadhu. Abi and Vignesh looked at me and said "avan un kita propose pananumnu plan panirundhan di, unna poi kootitu varen nu enga kita sonnan, ellathayum plan pannan, we were all ready and set at the place, nee call panna appo kooda naanga casual a pesunom maybe avan unna prank panranu aana nee romba azhudha naala dhan edho seri illanu avanuku call pannom...avanoda pala dreams la neeyum onnu, avlo azhaga plan panirundhan...avanoda feeling a confess panamale poitan ippo". Already avlo upset a irukura appo ipdilam vandhu sonna enna panuvinga? Ungalala edhume feel panna mudiyadhu, I wasn't crying, I couldn't, ellarum yosichirpanga what is wrong with me, yen ipdi irukenu, if I'm even a human but truth is ennalaye edhum feel panna mudila, ipdi onnu mela onnu kekrapo yen da namba uyiroda irukom nu matum dhan thonum, adhudhan thonuchu. Edhume pesama Rahul a mattum pathute irundhen, with the slightest of hope that he will wake up, look at me and say everything's a lie..But, reality is reality. Soon...ellarum vandhanga..including Rahul's parents, varavanga ellarum avana pakradha vida enna dhan pathanga naa yen edhume react panna irukenu..evlovlo pesa try pananga, nothing helped. And I went back to my home, Rahul veetuku pogave illa, even when all the last rites happened, I didn't go, avana paakura dhairiyam illa, avana pakura thagudhi kooda illanu I didn't go, I shut myself in a room and did nothing. I was just sitting..like a person who has lost the meaning of their living and this went on for months. Appa amma kita kooda pesala, I didn't allow anyone to come and see me either. Ippodhan about a year and a half, I started talking back to everyone...including Abi

Ashwin was in shock, he thought to himself how strong a person can be after going through so much, how Meyshna is even letting him know all of this, where did she get the courage to put all her feels and thoughts into words. As these were running on his mind, their food was served.