Autumns Child (Bucky Barnes x OC)

A Unique Bond

December 13th 2002 2:43pm
Current Body age: 21 years 63 days

A lot can change in five years, me as a person definitely. My craft inhibitor rarely ever went off because I learnt not to feel and to never ever look anyone in the eye. I still had an empath nature I just had to never look directly at anyone.

I didn't have to sleep in the tank anymore because they informed me that one day if I had to do a long mission I wouldn't have a tank at my disposal. Occasionally they would chain me to bottom of a bathtub to make sure it had not damaged my ability to breathe underwater. Nothing could stop me breathing in this hell.

I knew every nook and cranny of the base I still had yet to discover the outside world but I felt a sense of reassurance when remnants of the changing of the seasons inevitably made its way into the base.

The green leaves and flowers of spring, the way the base overheated during summer, of course the autumn leaves and the snow in winter.

I rarely saw the asset these days, well saying that I feel like I'm associated with two different men. The asset who was always kind in his right frame of mind before they reset him and the winter soldier who would throw punches at me without thinking.

I suppose he's the only one I ever associate with, I don't look at anyone's faces, don't care for peoples names, they're all the same lab coats and uniforms in the end.

In the end it's not their story I'm sharing, it's that of mine and the Winter Soldier. The child of winter and the child of fall waiting to be able to see the world turn outside these walls.

I was walking through the halls and my reflexes kicked in when I knife came flying out the room next to me and I caught it and glared into the room.

One of the soldiers was laying on the floor and towering above him was the winter soldier. I scowled and threw the knife back at him which he caught and threw on the floor as he stalked towards me.

"Soldier stop! No!"

The words did not reach him as his metal hand grasped my throat and pinned me too the wall. I felt my air being forced out of me as I struggled against his grip and eventually I kneed him violently in the balls making his grip loosen and I got him into a head scissor takedown making him fly across the room.

"Stop both of you!"

I hesitated as I watched him get to his feet, several of the soldiers were trying to hold him back but he smashed through them and swung a punch at me which I quickly dodged.

There was a fury of punches which we both evenly matched in dodging and striking at each other. I wanted to beat the crap out the winter soldier but I didn't want to hurt the asset.

"Shut her down! Shut her down!"

I collapsed and saw the words scrolling across my eye.

System shutdown

That day I truly thought I had died that they murdered me. It went dark I heard and felt nothing. I had not indulged in the idea of afterlives and resurrection, even if it was a thing I don't think that's an option for a unnatural human. I guess this is how I pictured it ending, into nothing.

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System rebooting

The vision blurred into view and I realised I was cuffed into the chair I was sitting in and struggled but I couldn't move.

"Don't struggle, or they'll punish you,"

I couldn't turn around but I knew that was the assets voice right behind me. It sounded exhausted and his voice was gravelly he sounded dehydrated.

"What happened?" I murmured blinking a few times trying to beat away the blurriness. The room was small and had nothing but the grey walls and us in the middle.

"It seems your craft inhibitor is able to induce you into a kind of coma if you will, they put you under and they knocked me out and here we are,"

I sighed leaning my head back and I flinched when I realised I came into contact with his head. He was leaned right against me, back to back.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you," he murmured.

"I know, that wasn't you, I know that,"

He sighed "It still wasn't ok I feel like a monster for ever touching you Autumn,"

I paused "Autumn?"

He let out a small laugh "Sorry, I had to give you a name in my head, 3250 didn't stick well with me, you were the only one worth remembering I guess and I wanted to call you that because-"

"Of when we first talked," I finished for him feeling a small smile creep on my face.

"Yeah, sorry if that's weird or anything, it's just I have trouble remembering things and I guess when someone mentions Autumn in general I think of you and it makes me feel comfortable,"

I felt my cheeks redden and I shook my head "No not at all, I kind of like it, it's nice...so what do I call you?"

He sighed and I heard the sound of his cuffs rattling as he shifted in his seat "I don't know...I don't remember,"

I instantly felt bad for asking as I forget he's been wiped of everything he was before "Can I give you name then?"

He breathed out a small laugh "I don't see why not,"

I paused thinking about it "Can I call you Snowflake?"

"Snowflake?"

I chewed on my lip "You're not as harsh as the winter soldier, I have never seen a snowflake personally, but from what I understand each one is unique and round here it's all lab coats and soldiers and then there's you...there's this phrase in my data banks that 'A snowflake never falls in the wrong place' meaning wherever it is lands it does so for a purpose, I believe that somehow you're here with the purpose of keeping some sanity in mind for me,"

There was a pause and I heard his handcuffs rattle and I felt his warm fingers wrap around mine.

It was strange now I thought about it no one had ever touched my hand like this, I had been dragged by my wrists and hair and all sorts but never like this.

I grunted as I felt a shock go through me making me grit my teeth. He squeezed my hand tighter "I know, it's okay I'm here deep breaths,"

The pain slowly faded away and I could breathe a little easier. I felt no pain just his calloused fingers rubbing mine.

"Autumn, I promise one day I will get you out of here I will not let you suffer for feeling anything, you can feel whatever you want and not face any consequences,"

I let out a long breath "Are you coming too Snowflake?"

"Of course id never leave you alone I promise,"

I heard the door begin to unlock and the warmth of his hand disappeared as he dropped my hand and I saw a bunch of lab coats walk in and then grabbed Snowflake out of his chair.

"Take him to cyro," one of them muttered.

As he was dragged away he looked at me and I dared to let my gaze slip to his eyes and instantly by god forsaken empath side sent electric shocks through me.

One of the lab coats approached me and backhand slapped me round the face, I gritted my teeth so I didn't let any emotion slip.

"You are not to interfere with the asset again, you could have caused serious damage to our greatest weapon and you are a distraction to him, stay away otherwise the punishment will be more severe next time,"

THANK YOU TO @COLEDEMATTEO FOR HELPING ME TO COME UP WITH THE NICKNAME I WAS COMPLETELY DRAWING A BLANK SO THANK YOU IT WORKED REALLY NICELY