psycho

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tw-mention of a size kink, jealousy, thoughts about killing, using human bait, sexual assault, acts of violence
(i'll leave a warning before the sa)
(also if it's in italics it's a little glimpse into the others pov without fully switching)

y/ns pov
me and spencer walked into rossi's mansion.  i think it was weird for both of us being in a house like this after our childhood. we knew exactly where his dining room was because we've had dinner here a couple times. we walk in and see the whole team already at the table drinking wine.

"heyy it's pretty boy and girl," derek yelled to us. me and derek were never on the team together but he hung out with us often and we were flirty but only joking. derek hugged spencer then me and i kissed him on the cheek. "come on and eat so we can get wasted," penelope cheered. everyone laughed at this, except spencer he was too focused on my lips, i didn't notice this though. me and spencer took the only empty seats next to each other.

spencers pov
she kissed derek on the cheek. everything around us became a blur, my rage was ready to explode but instead all i did was stare at her lips. i had to push all my rage down. y/n didn't know how much i liked her and morgan was just a man whore. we sat down, y/n in between me and morgan. great. i've seen some of y/ns past hookups, they had muscles just like morgan, she told me she had a size kink and liked men being a lot bigger than her. i may be pretty scrawny but she's only 5'2 and i could make her feel even smaller with just a couple words.

i snap back to notice everyone looking at me. "sorry guys what happened?"

"you were zoned out like crazy what were you thinking about?" questioned luke.

"oh just how happy i am to be back here with all of you guys," i faked a smile.

i think y/n knew it was fake bc she placed a hand on my thigh.  i looked over at her and she smiled at me.  if she keeps smiling at me like this i'm gonna be on my knees by the end of the night, proposing or just making her feel good i didn't care.

the whole time at rossi's derek and y/n were flirting. it was disgusting. come on morgan you have a wife, you know i like y/n why can't you just stay to your own girl.  he puts his arm around and i feel the rage build right back up. 

"i have to go to the bathroom i'll be back guys," i say quickly rushing to the bathroom.

once i'm in there i lock the door.  my thoughts are starting to really scare me.  all he did was put his arm around her and i wanted to hurt him. bad.  no that's normal, she's mine, not officially but everyone on the team knows it.  morgan's supposed to be my bestfriend so why is he touching her. i shouldn't have the urge to kill my bestfriend, it's wrong, but it's wrong for him to treat both y/n and savanah the way he does. 

this rage boiling inside of me isn't gonna go away until i kill someone.  i've shot unsubs before that's not what i need at all.  i need to actually do it.  i almost killed cat.  i think that was my breaking point, the way her life was in my hands i wanna feel that again.  the way fear flashed in her eyes, i liked it, but i won't be a normal unsub, i won't get caught and i won't let the high end.  i'm gonna take y/n with me, i've decided, she can either let me ruin her or i'll kill her too.  maybe i'll use her as bait for my first kill.

— time skip to the bar

y/ns pov
spencers been acting weird but ever since he came out of the bathroom he seemed cold. i like him i really do, i need to snap him out of this mood.

everyone was dancing except me and spencer, he just sat there occasionally taking a sip of his whiskey.

i scooted over to be close to him. "hey spence have you been feeling okay today? you seem distant," i asked him. he looked over at me and i looked in his eyes, it's like he wasn't even there, the normal glint he had when he looked at me wasn't there. it terrified me.

she looked scared, i've never seen someone look so attractive scared. "yeah babes it just feels kinda weird being out of prison still, i'm really happy to be with you though." god i wanna kiss her. i gave her a bright smile and held her hand.

there's the spencer i love, i gave him a bright smile back and intertwined our fingers. "do you want me to spend the night?" i asked him.

"yeah of course i miss doing that."

"me too, i'll have to borrow one of your shirts i don't have my go bag in my car."

you never take your go bag out of your trunk, you just like how big my shirts are on you and the fact that they smell like me. i like seeing you in them so i won't complain. but i don't know if i can keep my hands off of you all night.

the team comes back over we all do a couple shots and get another drink, i finally feel warm and fuzzy like i get when i'm drunk. luckily spencer was only a little tipsy. i wanna kiss him so bad. me and the girls go to dance while the guys talk at the table.

spencers pov
"god damn y/n looks nice in that dress, sometimes i wish i wasn't married," morgan remarked.

"i'll take her home for you man, the things i'd to her especially in that dress," luke replied to morgan.

i somehow just kept quiet, the thought that i get to take her home with me and all morgan and luke get is a little careless flirting comforted me greatly.  still pissed me off on another level that they said these things about her.  she's mine.

y/ns pov
me, penny, emily, jj and tara were all dancing with each other, a couple guys even came over and danced with us.  one of the guys was getting very close to me and i wasn't very comfortable with it. 

no one knows this but the last time i had a hook up was before spencer went to prison, once he got framed i spent all my time trying to free him i barely even slept or ate. 

stop reading here if sa triggers you

this random guy kept pulling me closer and closer grinding against me.  "please stop, i don't want this," i say trying to push away from him.  he starts pulling me away from the crowd, i was so scared, none of the girls noticed and i couldn't even see if spencer noticed, he pulled me outside too quick.

once we were outside he pinned me against the wall and started feeling all up my body. i was squirming under his touch and didn't even realize i was crying he put his hand up my dress, pushed my underwear to the side and started touching me. the tears were now streaming down my face, i really hoped someone would save me soon, i was frozen. he started kissing my neck, i just wanted him off of me.

i didn't realize spencer had came outside. he yanked the guy off of me by his shirt, he was as shocked as me, but he was angry. spencer started punching him, he was killing him, i didn't even realize. i had just slid down the wall crying while i hugged my knees.

spencer finally stopped, the guy didn't move at all. spencer came over to me, his knuckles were so bloody. i couldn't see it well because it was dark but he had a crazy high look in his eyes. i've only seen that look in unsubs. his lips were moving but i couldn't hear him. the realization of what just happened was hitting me. what the fuck.

spencer just killed someone and he looked like a crazy unsub.