psycho

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tw-mentions of murder, blood, mentions of bdsm, guns

spencers pov
i didn't want the sex last night to go like that, it was supposed to be loving but she had to ruin it by being so fucking hot. and now we have to go to work while she has hickeys all over her chest and a slight red mark from the slaps. i didn't mean to slap her that hard, i wanted to kiss all over and make it feel better when i saw the tears but it turned her on.

i quick made us toast and coffee, went down to her car to grab her go bag so she had clothes and once i came back up she was sitting on a kitchen stool eating toast. she looked so beautiful when she first woke up.

i think the trauma from last night started to set in for her, she had a overwhelmed look on her. i was just happy the rage was subsided. i don't know how long it would last but i figured i'd need to kill again, i don't think she knew that.

y/ns pov
spencer walked in the door holding my go bag. he looked deep in thought once he saw me, i was deep in thought too. i had so many questions i was too scared to ask. he killed someone last night, was it to protect me, did he enjoy it, did i enjoy watching him, most importantly does he want to do it again. i didn't wanna talk to him right now, i'm confused, i think i'm in shock.

"hi howd you sleep y/n?"

"i slept great spence, i know you did too," i replied hoping that was it.

"do you wanna talk about yesterday, if you have any questions i'll answer them, if you wanna cry you can cry, whatever you're feeling right now is okay."

"spencer you killed a man and then we had sex, it was the weirdest night of my life and i really hope it doesn't happen again, the killing part at least, the sex id like."

spencers pov
that's cute she thinks there's gonna be no more killing, i'll let her think that for now. "okay pretty baby, so you like rough sex?" she just nods at me, i walk over to her and tuck a piece of hair behind her ear. i lean down a little and kiss her and she leans right into the kiss, she wants me more than i thought.

i pick her up and put her on the counter, she wraps her arms around my neck and brings me in between her legs. in that moment i felt euphoria and i think she did too.

it was ended quickly by hotch calling me. we had a case and he needed us earlier. slight rage. i hoped it would go away longer.

she went to get dressed while i ate, i was kind of nervous to go in because what if y/n decided to tell anyone. i don't think i could kill her. she walks out and we go over to her car.

the ride there was pretty much silent, i knew she was just processing or planning to tell someone, i hope the first, i don't wanna kill her. we pull up to bau and walk inside, hotch isn't even here yet. the rest of the team is though.

y/n was just sipping her coffee when emily says the worst thing imaginable. "did you guys hear some guy that was at the same bar as us last night died?" y/n choked on her coffee, idiot. "where'd they find a body?" i asked.

"they didn't but they found blood outside and tested it, no one can get ahold of him either so i don't know," emily replied. i just gave a nod and went into the break room to get coffee, i also texted y/n.

spencer-pretty girl relax they have no proof it's us or even proof that he's dead.

y/n-you beat that guy to death and you're telling me there's no blood from your knuckles, also do something about them the bruises are really noticeable!

hotch came in and called you all to the round table and explained the case.  a man was taking girls from a bdsm club, and shooting them as he came inside them.  "wheels up in 30, y/n can i talk to you?" hotch asked.  i walked over to his office as everyone else got ready to leave, he either found out spencer killed the guy or i'm going undercover.

maybe i should tell him about the guy.  spencer did threaten me.

"y/n i know there's been a lot going on with you lately but i wanted to ask you to go undercover for this case, we would send reid and luke in as protection," hotch asked.  i wouldn't need protection if you send in spencer the other guy would need it. 

"yeah of course i'll do it," i answered and walked to get my go bag. 

spencer sat next to me on the jet. of course.  flashbacks of us kissing with his bloody hands all over me came back and i felt sick.  i rushed to the bathroom, not even realizing jj and emily trying to talk to me across from me and spencer. 

spencers pov
y/n had rushed away to the bathroom, jj and emily were trying to ask her what hotch said.  why did she rush away like that?  god i already wanna kill again.  my phone vibrating pulled me out of thoughts.

y/n-that kill was a one time thing right spence?

spencer-is that why you rushed out to the bathroom, you're still thinking about it?

y/n-we made out over a dead body you got his blood all over me while we kissed, do you not realize how wrong that is?

spencer-okay maybe it's a little wrong but come on y/n he was gonna hurt you.

she just left me on read after that. after a couple minutes she came out of the bathroom laid down on the couch and slept the rest of the plane ride away.

a/n-so updates are gonna be coming out slower now bc these first 4 i wrote in one day and haven't finished a chapter since then buh i'll be working on it!
thanks for reading!! ❤️