The new girl 5sos story

Party? Good i think i hope

Caution self harm and rape

Friday its calums party i told my mom i was staying the night at a friends and cal want me to come right after school with the boys and i agreed so im wearing leggings and a greenday shirt
I was getting ready to walk out the door
"Is that what your wearing" my mum asked
"Yea bye" i walked out because i didnt want to hear a lecture on what to wear
Cal has been waiting outside my house all week and we walked to the bus stop
Yesterday he held his pinky out and we held pinkies we laughed and held them all the way to school i liked his touch this boy is making me very happy he slid his pinkie into mine and i smiled and blushed we all left a little earlier so we can just ditch and get ready for calums party we all met at his house me and him were the first ones he opened the door and i walked in it was really nice i liked it
"Nice house" i said
"Yea it's about to be trashed" he laughed still holding my pinkie "oooh follow me i want to show you something" he pullede downstairs to the basement and i saw a guitar and mics and i ran to the guitar
"You play" i asked
"Yea were gonna play tonight" he said leaning to the right and i saw somthing on his chest i walked over and held his hand
" I wanna see what you have on your chest" i said
"Okay" he let go of my hand and took off his shirt i blushed and he went back and intertwined our fingers i touched his tattoo with my free hand
"Your really fit" he laughed at what i said
"Thanks" he kissed my hand
"Callllllllluuuuummm immm hommmmmeeeeeeee" luke screamed from the top of his lungs
"I have someone else luke" he said as he pulled me upstairs woth our fingers still intertwined i saw all of them and michael and luke tensed up when they saw my hand with calums i tighten my grip on his hand
"Well fine you dont love me no more you like her" luke said in a mean way ash came around to me and told me to move away
I let go of his hand cause the boys were getting in eachothers faces
"Guys" i said "um the party stuff and i dont need to be here cause of the situation" i turned around and walked to the basement and sat on the couch that was in the and put my hands to my head
"What is going on you guys she is confused as hell she just moved here and every god damm guy likes her im going to be there for her while you idiots are fighting" i heard ash say i started crying he came downstairs and saw me and rushed over
"Are you okay" he said rubbing my back
"I need to go i need air can you please take me outside" i cried out
He helped me up and wrapped his arm around i saw the boys getting ready for the party and they saw me crying i rushed outside leaving ash
"Rebbecca wait" ash said he sat on the grass and patted next to him
"I have a bad case of being depressed and i cry a lot for no reason i just need someone to hold me when i do" i started crying ash put his arms around me and rocked back and foward and my sleeve started to roll up
"Im better lets go inside and get ready for the party" i said standing up so he couldnt see
"Okay" we walked inside and the boys were okay and the all hugged me and told me sorry and we started getting ready for the party
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(Later that night party starts)
Me and calum and luke and mikey and ash pulled it off this is amazing everyone is here its so weird
"Hey pretty lady" i felt some junior touch my butt
"Hands off me" i yelled luke was the only one near me the guy kept on pulling me and kissing my cheek
"Luke help" i yelled he finally heard me after the 20 time
"Hey off now my party my rules she is mine" he said taking my wrist i wanted to scream i made fresh cuts yesterday and i never told anyone
"Fine she isnt doing anything anyway" he let go i rushed into luke he pulled me upstairs in the bathroom
"Here lets get the licks off of you" he wiped them off and smiled
"Thanks i better go back down and find ash" i said
"Okay" we both walked down and went our separate ways i saw ash hanging out with kids that went to a different school but they were smoking something i looked at calum girls were all over him grinding on him i wanted to cry then and there i started to turn around when mikey bumped into me spilling the beers on me
"Oh my god look at that slut she is so drunk" i heard someone say
"Becca im so sorry" mikey said
i pushed him and everyone out of my way and i went upstairs and found my purse and grabbed my blade and ran to the bathroom and locked it
I started cutting i cut at leaset 29 time each arm i heard luke banging on the door
I hid the blade and washed my arms and walked out
"What" i said
"Do you want a clean shirt calum has a sister you can borrow it form" he smiled
"Sure please its cold" i said he led me to her room i grabbed a long sleeve shirt
"Can you turn around" i asked and he did i quickly put on the shirt so he couldn't see
"Done lets go back down" i said pulling him he went with his friends and i couldnt find the girls the boys were with girls and guys and i didnt want to go over there
"Hey becca right" some kid said
"Yea thats me um im sorry who are you" i asked
"Dylan we have pe together" he said
"Oh im sorry its just been a long night" i said
"I understand you got beer spilled all over you right" he said
"Yea" i said sadly
"Everyone is going to be talking about it on Monday" he said excitedly and pushed me and ran over to his friends and they all started to come over i got scared and ran
"Ooohh look shes running" one said
I saw luke and he looked at me and he could tell somthing was wrong and i got pulled back
"Let go of me" said as they were pulling me upstairs
"No lets have fun" they all laughed and took me into a room
"Stop" i screamed
"Hahaha look at her" the guy took off my shirt and my pants
"Stop" one guy started kissing me and another started taking off his pants
" No stop" i screamed
"Nope" he pulled my underwear off and slid himself into me
"Help" i said and luke ash mikey and cal came rushing in the all started beating them uo i turned over and started crying on my side the guys left and ash cal mikey and luke stayed and i got up and went to a corner
"Don't touch me" i said
"Lets at least put clothes on hun" mikey said walking over and handing me my underwear and leggings i slid them on and i was just in a bra
"Can i have my shirt" i lifted up my arm and they all saw i started running to the door but ash caught me
"Please just let me run please" i cried
"Those are from today when" mikey said as luke and cal were kissing my wrists
"After you spilled beer and all the girls on calum all you guys ditching me luke kissing some girl" I cried even harder the all just looked at me in shock and ash was still holding me from running
"Becca were so sorry we didnt want to fight over you and see you end up with one of us and not us" mikey cal and luke explained ash kept holding me
"Becca we all love you and all want a chance to prove ourselves" cal said
i got out of ashes arm and ran to the bathroom and locked it
"Becca let us in now please" they were all saying i grabbed the razor i hid and started cutting and the door swong open and luke grabbed the razor mikay grabbed my arms ashton was telling me that its not good
"Mikey please stop your hurting me" i wimpered he let go and held onto me by my stomach and cal came back and closed the door mikey sat me on the counter and cal gpt the cleaning stuff out of the first aid kit i started to panic
"No no no nono" i started scooting away and mikey held me there ash hugged me and luke was holding my arms for cal
"No no no no" i kept on saying in ashes ear
"Princess we dont want them getting infected were doing this for you" luke said
"Here i go" mikey grabbed onto my mouth as cal started putting it on my cuts i screamed not so loud cause mikeys hand was there but luke can hear it
"Shhhh shhhh its almost over one more arm" cal said putting a big band aid on it
"Give her a minute cal" ash said as mikey let go of my mouth
"No more please" i cried out trying to pull my arms back but luke held them
" Princess we have to okay please just let us" he said
"Fine just this once" i cried ash hugged me tighter
"Ready" i started to panic and ash held me and mikeys hand went over my mouth
"Here i go" he said starting i looked at luke and he looked at me crying and looked away
"Almost done" he said dabbing it and putting an big band aid on it mikey let go of my mouth and ash stopped hugging me
"Please dont do it we love you and need you here please" calum said playing with my fingers
"Okay" i said " but if i have a bad day i can't promise anything i will fight you if you try to stop me and i dont want to hurt you" i cried really hard I realized i was in my bra and i think cal noticed to so he gave me his shirt and helped me put it on
"Imma get everyone out its like 3 anyways" luke said taking mikey and ash out
"Calum can i sleep here" i asked with tears streaming down my face
"Yes princess any time" he said wiping my tears
"We should clean up a little first" i said getting off he counter
"Okay what ever you want" he said opening the door everyone was gone and we started cleaning we finished in a hour suprizing
"Um normal beds" cal said the boys went upstairs and cal looked at me
"You can sleep in my bed ill sleep on the couch" i cut him off
"Please im afraid" i started shaking and he hugged me
"Ssshhhh its okay ill sleep in the room" he said taking me to his room
"Ill sleep on the fl" i cut him off
"Sleep withh me" i stuttered
"Okay do you want boxers" he asked
"Yes please" he handed me black one and he turned around and i slipped them on and took off my bra and put calums shirt back on
"Okay" i said he took off his other shirt and his pants
"You dont mind do you ill sleep with them if you want me to" he said
"Calum be comfortable" i said he finished and hopped in bed i was still standing
"Come here" he opened his arms and i ran into them
"calum is it okay for me to cry" i asked
"Yes baby cry all you need ill be here" he said rubbing small circles on my back i started crying
"Calum i was raped i cut and i ruined your party and im jealous" i cried
"Princess this is the best night because i am helping you and why are you jealous" he asked
"Because the girls that were all over you" i cried he let go and pulled my chin up
"Those girls just want me because im the party thrower and i hve my eye on a beautiful girl who is amazing" he said smiling at me
"Must not be me im not beautiful or amaz" he cut me off and kissed me

OMG I CRIED AND LAUGHED AND SHOCKED AT WHAT I WROTE OMG I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING OUT OF ME OMG YOU GUYS ARE LUCKY A REALLY LONG UPDATE TODAY I WILL DO ANOTHER SOON IM SORRY FOR ALL HE BAD SCENES OKAY I LOVE YOU