𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐝 || 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐮𝐧𝐠

chapter thirteen

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he said his heart has been aching throughout the day too, not just when he wakes up.

I'm worried. I'm worried because like I said, it has worsened for me too. I've been crying more and more while it becomes increasingly intense as days pass by...

it's so scary..

I'm scared.. however nobody will understand how we feel so therefore as I've repeated a million times, we cannot do anything about it. there's no medicine or crazy experiment we could do to stop this..

it's so stupid that if we ever do decide to tell someone, like a doctor for example! they'd think we're psycho, they'd think I'm crazy!

yeah maybe they'll check my eyes, tell me to put eyes drops and lastly put me in a mental hospital. they'd think that we're just pulling pranks on them..

they'd tell us 'you guys are just dreaming' or "that's just some stupid coincidence' or 'don't waste my time and go home'..

like, what!? is this a new sort of crazy disease? a mental illness? or like what I consider it, just a coincidence?

what if this lasts forever? what if I end up crying randomly throughout the day too??

and if this 'thing' was actually a disease, is it contagious? have we accidentally passed it on to others? it can't, it wouldn't. if it was to be contagious then minho and I wouldn't have had this happening at the same time.

my head is all over the place and all my thoughts are nonsense... nothing I'm thinking makes sense and I-

seriously, seriously don't know what to do.. I'm afraid.
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