A Night To Regret

Chapter 1: Positive

Chapter 1: Positive

I blinked. Maybe I am just mistaken. Perhaps i am wrong from what I am seeing. I took a very deep breath before I looked into it again. I bit my lower lip and my eyes started to water as panic gripped me. I stood up in no time, agitated. I paced back and forth. I don't know what I am going to do. I let the tears flowed through my eyes. I couldn't think properly because of this result that would crush my whole world.

"You're an idiot, Sky! You're such a fucking idiot!" I scolded myself. Even though I found it futile for me to do this, I still scolded myself. It already happened. I couldn't revoke what happened. There was no time machine invented at this era.

I heard the door opened and met Allison's eyes. Her eyes widened upong seeing me in my condition. "Sky? Why are you crying?" She hurriedly rushed beside me as she placed her hands in my shoulders. Confusion was all over her face. "Sky, what happened? Do you have any problem? What? Answer me!" She panicked and shook me.

That made me cry again seeing how worried she is. I couldn't help but to mourn and hugged her. "Allison!" I weeped to my heart's content. I need a comfort right now. I need someone who will hug me right now. And I know that's Allison who could give me what I want. She's my comfort zone and my bestfriend.

I felt Allison's hand caressing my back, comforting me. "Ssshh. It will be okay, Sky. Sshh. I'm here you know. It's gonna be alright." I cried more when she said that. It's not going to be fine. Everything is fall into pieces. Knowing the results, it scares me too much for my own good.

I lulled after a moments. I placed a distance to our hug. She guided me to sit in the couch. She left for a while and brought me a glass of water. I drank till I consumed it. I fanned myself when I felt myself about to cry again. I took a deep breath as I calmed down myself.

I felt Allison's presence when she sat beside me. I know that she's waiting for me to explain but she just chose to silence for a while. I felt like I want to cry again. My condition cannot be cured. It cannot be undone. I have to explain to her of what is happening and why I cried.

"Here." I gave her the small thing that ruin my world just by seeing it. My hands were shaky as I gave that to her. She took, stared and examined it. I waited for her to speak. But minutes passed, she hasn't talked. She's just looking on that thing.

"Allison, talk to me. Please... You're horrifying shit out of me." Tears started to pool my eyes when she says nothing but just looking at that thing I gave to her. What was on her mind? I wanted to know what she's thinking. I want to know if what I'm seeing is just an imagination for me and maybe for her.

"It's positive."

I think my tears retreated when Allison started to talk. I looked at her. She's not looking at me but to that thing she was holding.

"A-Allison..." I called her name. I felt so nervous about her reaction about it. Just by thinking her reaction makes me want to cry then isolate myself from everyone because of humiliation.

"Sky, it's positive." She repeated it. Then, in an instant she snapped her head to me. I almost fell back from my seat as she has this fury reaction. On my pheripheral vision, I saw she clenched her fists.

I stood up and stepped backward. She stood up and placed her balled fists in my shoulders. I felt myself sickened from my place. My best friend is really angry.

"You're pregnant?? How did that happened, Sky?" calmed yet scary asked by Allison. Okay. I am really scared at her right after seeing her anry reaction. I didn't expect that she would have this kind of reaction like she wants to punch someone.

My tears instantly fell from my eyes and I removed her hands from shoulders then I turned my back. I was just shaking my head not agreeing the happening right now. I'm going to be dead once my parents know about my condition.

"I-I don't know. Allison, I'm confused and shocked! This is your fault! Because of me being so fucking drunk, I didn't know that I had sex to someone I barely know!" I said angrily, emotions grilled me. I covered my face with my hands as I cried in shame. I don't know what I am going to do now. That pregnancy test result started to ruin me now.

"But... But you said..."

I faced her. I pointed my finger to her chest. "I lied, Allison. It's just a lie that I told you that I slept here in the apartment. I just woke up in different room and found out I was in a hotel room. And I found myself, NAKED! AND THERE'S A BLOOD STAIN IN THE BEDSHEETS! ALSO, I FELT SO SORE DOWN THERE! Did you hear me, Allison?!! There's a blood stain!!! It means, I'M NOT A VIRGIN ANYMORE WHEN I WOKE UP!!!" I shouted at the top of my lungs before I cried again. I roamed my eyes all over my surrounding as I am looking for something to throw away. I want to throw something that would ease this situation for a while. I am so annoyed and fucking mad! It's because of her! Because of her!!!

"I-I'm so..sorry, S-Sky. I-I didn't know that-"

"Because you're too busy partying and drinking liquor and you forgot you were accompanied by me." I looked away and tears rolled down my cheeks. Way back then, I saw how she did enjoy drinking and dancing to other men. She tagged me along with her and said things that I should relax for a while and she got my back. And that thing,I regret it. I regret that I went with here. The result is me getting pregnant to someone I don't know who the damn guy I had sex with.

"N-No! Sky, no! Hindi-" She tried to hug me but I kept on pushing her away. That ignites my madness to her so the next thing I did shocked the both of us.

I slapped her.

My eyes enlarged from what just I did to her. She held her cheek and looked at me, half-surprised, half-embarassed.

I reached her. Guilt engulfed me as I saw the red mark in her cheek. "A-Allison.. I... I didn't... mean to..." I immediately hugged her from what I did. "Sorry... I didn't mean to, Allison." I really didn't mean to slap her. It's not my intention. It's just that my hand moved to its own accord and I already was too late to stop myself from slapping her.

I thought she's going to remove my hands from hugging her but I was shocked when she hugged me back. I heard her sniffing. "Ssshhh... I-it's okay, S-Sky... It's my fault for not taking care of you."

We both cried to what she said. I didn't expect she would understand me after all. And that, she accepted that it really was her fault. But I contributed to what happened. I shouldn't have gone with her.

It's my fault I fell for the devil's words.

I shouldn't have been tempted. I should have chosen to study rather than partying with her. I didn't expect that going with my best friend at the bar would end the dreams of my parents.

I don't know what I'm going to do...