Have you ever felt like you're the only person in the world and that it is actually all about you and everyone else is a side characters in your story. That you're the only one whose right and smartest person ever.
I have to admit I have lost all my motivation living here and not discovering something new. I don't understand how my family is happy here and with all the money that we have, they don't want to travel all around the world.
After meeting my new friend Cami all that I have thinking is about going to live somewhere like Rome. All the stories that Cami have told me about the place she came from was breathtaking. She was living here for about two months and going to the same school as I. And every day I begged her to tell me more about that beautiful country and life there.
Laying down on my bed and looking at the ceiling I was waiting for my friend to come so we could go meet our big friend group. Shelly was my best friend, we were like a best duo in our school everyone wanted to be friends with us. We were inseparable and always looking out for each other. We were different but at the same time perfect together.
,,You won't believe what I just found out" bursting into my room Shelly said. I didn't even bothered to sit down and look at her. ,,Hey, what's wrong with you?" she asked concerned. ,,I'm just thinking about my life" ,,Not again" she groaned and fell besides my on the bed looking at the same ceiling. I turned my head to her and said ,,Shelly, I don't want to be here."
Don't get me wrong everything here was to good to be true for me. I wanted more interesting life then just perfect life in the US.
,,I have an idea" Shelly quick got up and walked to the other side of the room. She picked something from my commode and returned back. ,,Spin and pick" I got so confused that I even sat down and looked at her hands, she was holding my globe. I didn't even knew that I had one. ,,Wha you mean?" I asked not understanding her. ,,Spin and whatever you land your finger you'll go there. It isn't like you can't do that." she said chucking.
I knew that maybe she was right, but I didn't wanted to go somewhere random. In my heart I knew were I want to travel and live. ,,Shelly, maybe you're on to something." I said getting up and walking out of the room. ,,Hey, were are you going?" ,,I'm gonna talk with my parents. I'll be quick." Even if I told her that I'll be back soon she still followed me. She's too noisy sometimes, but she's like a family to me so I didn't hid anything from her.
I walked down the stairs admiring the house in which I lived. I was always bright here and I was happy that it felt like home. I heard my parents talking in the kitchen so went straight there.
,,Mom, dad" I said smiling. ,,Yes, honey is everything okey?" my mom asked, like always caring to much. ,,Yes, it's I just wanted to ask a question." I looked back seeing that Shelly was already in the room and leaning against the door frame with I smile. She knows I thought to myself. ,,Can I to Italy?"
The kitchen was in the awkward and uncomfortable silence. I didn't known what to think because my parents didn't even showed emotions. They were like charging their batteries or to shocked to answer me.
,,What?" my dad asked. ,,You guys remember Cami, my friend from Italy. She told me how perfect it is to live there and I can't stop thinking about it. And I thought that maybe there is a way for me to live there. Maybe even Cami could let me live with her. Please, I'm begging you. I would study hard and won't disappoint you. If something happened I would be back as soon as possible" I think my parents thinks that i'm crazy.
,,Yes, we do remember Cami, but you have I perfect live here what else do you need" my mom asked kinda disappointed. ,,That's the problem. I want something new. I don't feel happy here anymore. And don't even say that it's not possible I is y'all just need to let me live on my own and start to make decisions about my life and what I wanna do then I'll grow up"
For the rest evening I tried to convince them. My dad was already agreeing then my stormed my with the questions: where will you live? in that school will you go? who's gonna take care of you? can you cook and clean your clothes? do you know italian? (that question made me laugh because my dad was half italian and he teached me). So all in all those questions were just a waste of time and trying to convince me that i'm not capable to care of my self.
,,Shelly, you won't believe me!!!" I screamed at the phone then she picked my call. ,,No way they agreed??" she couldn't believe me. ,,I know. My mom know is talking to Cami's mom about me staying at their place. Isn't that awesome?!!?" I shouted again. The call went silent. ,,Ya, is just sad that the first time in ten years you won't be with me everyday. That I'll do without you? And don't you dare think that i'm not happy for you. I'm." i started to feel bad for her I was always with her and now she'll have to deal on her own. ,,Shelly..." ,,No, stop I said I'm happy for you. I don't care I'll call you everyday and you'll have to tell me everything." I laughed at her.
For the last week I spent everyday day with my friends. It was our last day's and we cried, we laughed at the memories we collected through years. I was happy and nervous I called Cami every night and asked her if plans didn't changed.
Holding my best friend and hugging her as strong as I would. My eyes started to watering and I felt salty tears running down my face. ,,Don't you dare forget me you dumbass" from her voice I heard that she's crying too. ,,I love you too much to forget you" I squeezed her even more not wanting to let her go.
,,Look how big you are" my dad said hugging me as the tears started running faster. ,,I love you, dad. And thank you for this" i said him talking into his shoulder.
,,I won't let you go" my mom hugged me with all her love. Her makeup was ruined from crying. She knew that eventually she'll have to let go of me and watch me disappear into the crowd while i'll be walking into the plane.
I was nervous, really nervous. I checked my phone hundred times after I sent my text to Cali saying that i'll already here in Italy. Wow saying that even in my head sounded perfect and to exiting. It was already night and even if I felt tired I couldn't wait to drive down Rome streets and look through the window admiring its beautiful.
,,CAMI" I shouted seeing her running to hug me. We almost fell out of happiness to finally see each other.
,,You're here and it's really. Y/N YOUR DREAM CAME TRUE" she said not believe herself. ,,I know" I sighed. ,,I bet you're tired let's go home" she said putting her hand on my shoulder and led me to direction were her parents were standing. With a big smile on my face I hugged them and thanked them.
,,Good so there is a little problem" Cami said while we were standing in the hallway of her house. ,,What problem" I started to get anxious. ,,No biggie. Just that guest room, your room isn't quite finished so you'll have to sleep in this one" she pushed the door with her hand revealing big room I couldn't see it very well because it was dark, but I didn't care. I thing I wanted the most was to be able to close my eyes and have a few hours sleep. ,,Don't worry, i'm too sleepy to care" i giggled. Turning around I hugged Cami one last time and went to bed.
It was relaxing finally lay in the bed and don't have to think about anything. My dream came true and with those thoughts I fell asleep.
