Always.
My friends
they always are feeling down
so make them feel better.
I will always do that.
But
will anybody do that for me?
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Alone.
Shadows
watching
me
listening
to me
waiting
for me
to stop.
Stop crying.
To stop feeling alone.
To stop doubting myself.
Will this ever happen?
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There.
Sitting there
talking
chatting
being cheery.
Helping people
feel better.
While inside, I'm dying
While inside, I'm crying
While Inside, I'm alone.
While on the outside, I'm happy
smiling
Being helpful
Apparently, nobody can tell the difference
Between
fake happiness
and
true happiness.
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Dysphoria. ( Zbooks202 this one's dedicated to you.)
I look
at me
and see
A place
that i don't belong in.
A place
that everybody sees
and everybody assumes
fits me.
A place
that
i wish
I fit in.
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Imagination.
A world
full of
color
and life
and culture
a world
I love
but don't live in.
I place i use my imagination to find.
I do this
because it's better than
the real world.
The one that's not any of those.
Cold
Dark
Fucked up.
