june 11, 2021
As i opened my facebook, i felt my heart stop beating for awhile. i see a lot posting their names on the list with saying "Passed" "Congratulations" and all the flattering words. I was hesitant to check my name on the list but i remember, it's impossible for me to pass the exam, after a long minutes silence, i decided to check.
i scroll down and find my name, when i found Letter I, my whole body system just suddenly stop working, for a moment i thought this was all a dream, and yep my name is on the list.
my friend called me and tell me that i passed. "so this is true.." i murmured
I sat and trying to comprehend and i smiled knowing i passed the exam.
my parents, my relatives were so proud of me and
I'm not happy about it and feel proud about it because i know they're expecting me, and what i hate is to feel pressure but one thing that makes me feel scared is what if they found out that i didn't get the passing average for my course? will they feel ashamed of me? will they still love me? will they still support me and congratulate to me? And its killing me.
their attitudes changed towards me just because i passed i mean since grade 4, i no longer received honors and my parents treating me differently like they make me feel im outsider and what more sucks is like im making them poor and failure. im dying inside every single day.
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once upon a time, i used to be happy.
Horror"u talked so much and because of that i hate myself."
