Somewhere safe

Bad liar

Later I found out that the mysterious man was my dad. The man that left me years ago and that now wants me to live with him in Australia.

"You want me to go leave with you? In Australia? And leave mum? And Amber? And and and..."  I guess it would be an amazing opportunity to start over, to forget about Shane... new country, new city, new people, new me. But, because there is always a but, how can I leave everything for a man that left me.

"Sweetie, I know it's a big change and I know I haven't been the best father, specially in the last few years, but I really want to make it up for you." I could see it in his eyes that he really meant it but why me? Why not Amber? "I stopped drinking, I went back to uni, finished my degree and I have a good life now, a life I want to share with you"

"Oh Richard, don't you thing it's a little bit late now?" Said my mother with venom in her voice. "And you went to university for what? Learn how to be a better alcoholic?"

"Actually Susan, I completed my medicine degree and am now a psychiatrist, trying to help people that struggle with the problems I did" My mums face drops, I guess she wasn't expecting that and damm it, a doctor, my dad? I've always wanted to be a doctor! Australia is sounding better and better. " I know it's a big decision to make, but I'm leaving tomorrow morning honey and..."

"I'll go!"

"WHAT?!" I look at my my mum's face and all I see is sadness and disappointment. Amber looks paler than Snow White and even my dad looks surprised.

"Mum, I love you but it's been harder and harder to stay here and be happy. I haven't been myself lately, have you noticed that? I feel more lonely as the days pass by and honestly I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to feel like I'm a burden to you or to Amber. I just need to do something for myself for once" I say as I walk towards my mum to hug her and wipe the tears off her face. "And we live in the 21st century. There might be water separating us but you can come visit me whenever, we will speak everyday, and this will make the distance more bearable, I'm sure"

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With my bags packed I just had one more thing to do, before embarking in my first very adventure: talk to Shane. Not only about me moving but also about my feelings for him, that have been present since the day we met. I know it's clichê, girl falls for boy next door, but I can't help it. He will always have a special place in my heart, he is part of my history and my memory.

Shane leaves a few houses down from mine, with his mum, Jackie, and his older brother, now in college, Hugh. A very attractive Hugh, might I add, with his long shiny black hair, piercing blue eyes, and the strongest body a 20 year old could have. He is like an older brother, however when him and Amber broke up we became distant. But hey I don't blame him for breaking up with my bitchy sister, but I wish he didn't start treating me differently just because we have the same blood.

As I approach, Shane's house, I look at my surroundings, trying to memorise, every tree, every house, every flower. Taking a mental picture of what I'm leaving behind until I see a very happy Kaya leaving my best friends house.

"Hey girl, what are you doing here?" I ask.

"Sarah? Omg! Happy new year gorgeous! What are you doing here? Oh! You just asked that..." she says, I can see her face getting redder and redder at the same time as my ears, awaiting for something I don't wanna hear. "So I came to talk with Shane about what happened last night"

"What happened last night?" Me pretending that I don't know what happened.

"Ugh... he kinda kissed me and the left without an explanation... I wish I could have told him I felt the same way before he left, but it had to wait" oh, so she feels the same way... moving to Australia is without a doubt my best option.

"So are you guys a thing now?" I nervously ask.

"I mean, you know me, no relationship type of girl! But Shane is different... the kiss was amazing," I need to leave, I need to leave "I never felt what I felt with any other guy. We will just take our time, and just enjoy for now I guess."

"I'm so happy for you guys! But can you do me a huge favour? Go back in and tell Shane I'm moving to Australia, I'm late for something! Bye, love you!" And with that I start running. Crying is not an option anymore. Sydney is my future now.