traitor // marvel

part 3

bucky's pov:

sam had just got back from mcdonald's and had bought me around 50 cheeseburgers. i thought he was exaggerating when he said "i'll buy you all the cheeseburgers you want", but i guess he wasn't.

we ate our food in silence. i didn't know what to say. to be honest, i was still in shock. i'd just lost the love of my life - how do i recover from that? but sam's words stuck with me. "you've got to live your life." i have lived my life, i've been alive for over 100 years. she was only 22. i thought about his words over and over until it finally sunk in. i can't live the rest of my days grieving, mourning, being in denial. that's not good for me. as much as it hurts me, i have to say goodbye.

i've got to move on.

i don't know how i will, but i'll do it step by step. i love her, i really do, but she's not coming back. that pains me to say, but i need to move on.

i'm not going to fuck random girls straight away, that's not what i mean by 'moving on'. what i mean is i need to lose feelings that i had. i can't do that by myself. that's impossible. i need a fresh start.

i need all memories of her removed from my brain.

i need to forget her.

fully.

i know a place that can do what i need. if i don't remove my memories of her, i'll never overcome my feelings towards y/n. they are too powerful. i love her so much, and you can't just make love disappear over night. but, with help, you can.

i'm going to give them a call. see if i can see them tomorrow. the sooner all memories of her are removed, the quicker i can move on.

you were right sam.

i have to move on.

y/n's pov:

i became so angry so quickly. thanos was sitting in what looks to be his throne, acting as if nothing had happened. wow. we stood (well i stood and he sat - lucky sod) in awkward silence for what seemed to be 4 hours, until he finally spoke.

"well fucking finally, the grape speaks! got anything to say? no? not sorry for killing me? okay" i snapped.

he stood up and walked towards me. he didn't scare me. i didn't flinch one bit. kinda proud of that.

he cupped my face. i didn't want to move his hand because i'd probably die, but i felt super uncomfortable.

"my child. i didn't kill you, stark made the decision. i'm sorry. but you must join me so i can fulfil my destiny" he spoke with such power and wisdom in his voice.

"what destiny?" i asked, curious as to what this purple prick had to fulfil.

"my destiny."

"well i got that part, you've just repeated it twice. what is your destiny? like be honest with me, i'm actually so curious to find out. spill the tea thanos" i told him sarcastically and i could see his army trying not to laugh.

he gave them all a dirty look. "to wield the power of 6 infinity stones. to kill half of life, so the other can thrive. be used to luxury and see it as normality. to never struggle another day, where it be on the streets or looking for work. life would be peaceful."

"yeah, but it would be born out of blood. they wouldn't stay there: you'd be the most wanted person by that point" i pointed out.

"they wouldn't know it. they couldn't, it would not only kill me, but them selves too. without the leader to tell them how to live, how will they succeed? how will they thrive?"

i gulped. "like suicide?"

thanos grinned. "there's a reason i chose you, you're smart. the smartest person in this room. yes, it would be exactly like suicide. they would need me to survive. without me, meh, they'd be better off dead and being fed to the wolves."

thanos spoke again. "so, y/n, you've got a decision to make. a big decision. do you go back to the person who let you die, or do you stay and fight alongside me, and my children. by staying, you become my child. but by siding against me? all you'll see is blood, guns and death. choose, y/n."

it didn't take me long before i'd made up my mind. "i've made up my mind."

"speak."

"i want to stay and fight with you."

thanos looked happy, and he smiled for once. "excellent. i can't wait for our work together, y/n. we will make the dream team."

a/n: hope you enjoyed part 3, no idea when i'll update 4. bye for now besties <3