One direction hurt/sad/sick fics - niall and harry centric

not in the photo - Niall

IM ALIVE LNEJFVHRGLRIG

Gonna add Zayn to this one, hope you guys dont mind it.

TW: SELF HARM AND MENTION OF EATING DISORDER

PLEASE READ THE AUTHOR'S NOTE AT THE END <3

SONG RECOMMENDATION: Torna a casa - Maneskin

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Niall didn't really care about what haters thought. Even tho he was still young, he was mature enough to know better than caring what others thought of himself. Of course he got sad over hate comments sometimes but mostly he didn't care because he knew the haters weren't their fans. 

But he couldn't help but be sad when their fans were rude to him. 

Lately, in twitter or in fan meetings, most of their fans were starting to be rude to Niall. Not all of them of course but most of them. 

They either wouldn't want him in the picture when they were taking a photo with other lads, or would just say "Hello Niall" while adding "How are you?" to other lads. Yeah it wasn't that bad but it would hurt Niall, a lot. 

One time a fan asked Niall to hide behind the curtain when they were taking a photo, and in addition to that neither of the lads said something about it. Niall would hide behind it and come out when the photo time was over. 

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Today, there were 10 meetings and their day would be over. The lads quickly jumped out of the bus and got inside the building where they would meet some fans. There weren't any paps or fans outside, thankfully. 

They opened the door and sat down in order Harry, Liam, Louis, Zayn at the end Niall, waiting for the fans. Some fans got inside, all squealing and some crying. "Hey guys" Harry said and smiled brightly. 

Niall was scared they wouldn't want him at the picture but thankfully it didn't happen, until the end. 

The lads signed some photos and it was time for the photo. Niall was at the side but a fan asked "Hey Niall, would you mind getting out of the photo?" Niall frowned and quickly shook his head to say he wouldn't mind. He looked at the lads but neither of them said anything, but they had stopped smiling when the fan asked Niall to get out of the frame. Niall got out of the room, but left the door open a little to peek. 

All made funny faces and laughed at themselves. Niall felt tears coming to his eyes but quickly wiped them away. He sighed and closed to the door fully and made his way outside. 

After some minutes of waiting in the car, Niall sobbing he heard some foot steps and wiped the tears away. The lads got inside and Liam glanced at Niall. His eyes were red from crying and his nose slightly red. Niall sniffed and said "Hi lads" his voice hoarse from crying, and put a fake smile. The lads didn't seem to catch on it. 

After a few days the photo, the one without Niall, was posted on Twitter. Niall looked at the comments and it was all 

"You are so lucky!!!"

"Wish i was you 😭😭"

and things like them. 

One said "Where's Nialler?" Niall smiled at the fact that someone called him Nialler and read the comments. The fan who posted the photo replied with a

"He is ugly and i didn't want him at my pic."  Niall quickly shut his phone and cried himself to sleep, thinking if he was really ugly.

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