HeartThrob Hotline [h.s]

𝟬𝟯 - 𝗕𝗿𝘂𝘁𝗮𝗹

I feel like no one wants me And I hate
the way I'm perceived I only have two
real friends And lately, I'm a
nervous wreck 'Cause I love people
I don't like And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park

[Brutal
Olivia Rodrigo]

WC: 10030

DT: nestle!! aka nessa because i wrote this as a
vinnie one shot for her, i'm like 90% sure i don't
even use a name only part of one which is probably
annoying because most of this is just 'him' or 'he', not
a name and a small desc which is vague
so you can literally just imagine it's harry

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"Cunt!"

"Bitch!"

"Call me that one more fucking time!" Is throwing stones as someones house considered a crime? Maybe destruction of property? Would they really throw me in jail? I'm not sure but I don't mind risking it.

"Why? It's not like it's a lie!" Yep I really don't mind. Looking around me where I stand in the garden I see a small round stone, not big enough to break a window but small enough that it'll cause damage to his annoying face.

I throw it.

"Did you just throw a stone at me?" Yelling, oh God the yelling. As if I haven't heard enough of that in the last 54 minutes, 7 seconds and counting. Well that's what happens when your boyfriend -- Sorry ex-boyfriend is a cheating piece of shit and wouldn't know what accountability meant even if it smacked him in the face like the rock I just threw.

"Yea I did! Hopefully the next one can go through your bedroom window and hit Mia!" I wouldn't do that actually, Mia seems nice and I don't think she knew Jay had a girlfriend, emphasise on the did. "Sorry Mia!" I yell, she peaks out the window with an apologetic smile and gives me a thumbs up.

"Oh my God for the last time we were on a break?" Did he just quote Friends to me? Makes sense my least favourite character is Ross and here i'm just now realising the similarities between my former ex and him.

"No we weren't! It wouldn't make sense seeing as I fucking live with you! I want you to break your fucking neck!" I don't think i've ever swore or yelled so much in my life. I need a drink my throat hurts, I wouldn't be surprised it I woke up tomorrow and couldn't speak.

Giving him the finger and yelling more profanity's at him, I open my shitty car door and slam it closed once i'm inside. Without looking back at him or at Mia I start the engine and press on the gas as quickly as I can. I might be able to put on a mask and act like a bitch in front of him but it won't be long before the perfectly painted cover drips off and starts to blend in with my real face.

The facade is crumbling.

No tears, Azalea, crying doesn't look good on you.

Thanks Mom.

I'm not even sure if i'm upset about Jay cheating or rather something else, obviously i'm sad that I got cheated on -- that's not fun for anyone -- but I was planning on breaking up with him anyway so why does it matter? Maybe my period is coming.

Or maybe you're upset because you overheard a certain curly haired blond say that you're a prissy, boring, plain --

Shut up.

Is there a way to turn off your inner monologue? There should be. I need an off switch for that thing.

Whatever, i'm not even upset about that, it's not as if I haven't been called worse and why would anything he says suddenly matter? He's nothing to me. He's just my brothers annoying fucking best friend. A best friend that I could never have even if --