Soulmates (pewdiecry) (HIATUS)

I (Dont) Love you

Felix let out a low breath and looked at Ryan. Damn he looked great...
The baggy tank top hung off his pale skin lookely, almost falling off from his shoulders. The black skinnies hugged his thin legs, the rips showing off his skin in places. His messy, shaggy brown hair hung in front of his big, innocent cerulian eyes, which shone brightly.
Wait... Was he... Developing feelings for Ryan...? But... He wasn't gay! He likes girls! He was never attracted to men... But... Ryan was different.
He was snapped out of his trance as Ryan snalled his fingers in front of his eyes. "Earth to Felix!" Felix blinged and shook his head.
"Hmm? Oh hi!" He chuckled, blushing lightly from embarrassment. Ryan smiled and rolled his eyes.

“You space out too much” He pointed out, smirking to himself. Felix shrugged and laughed.

“It’s one of my many talents!” Ryan shook his head and pinched the bridge of his nose, a light chuckle escaping his lips.

“You’re such an idiot…” Felix grinned and tackled Ryan in a hug.

“Yes, but that’s why you love me!” Ryan laughed along with Felix and shrugged.

“No, I put up with you, I don’t love you” He said bluntly, poking Felix’s forehead. Felix frowned and poked Ryan back. This escalating into a full out war until both of them were breathless from laughter and pathetic, girly screams for mercy.

Felix lifted his head and looked at Ryan, smiling gently. He noticed how close their faces were and blushed, his eyes involuntarily falling to Ryan’s lips. Ryan’s eyes clouded slightly from something Felix couldn’t quite put his finger on… and the next thing he knew their lips were pressed together, moving slowly and passionately against each other’s.

Then Felix realized what he was doing…

He was kissing another man…

And loving it.

He shot back, his blue eyes wide with shock. Ryan wore the same expression, except his was more… shameful.

“R-Ryan I-I’m so-“ Ryan shot up and ran out of the room, flying into the bathroom and locking the door behind him. He didn’t have a reason to cry… but he did. Warm tears flooded his eyes and dripped down his cheeks, staining his pale skin. His back slid down the hard wood of the door as he slowly collapsed onto the linoleum tiles.

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

He repeated to himself, hugging his knees to his trembling body.

I don’t love you…

Do I?

He closed his stinging eyes and let out a quiet sob.

I love you…

Felix punched a wall, cursing profanities at himself. He just had to go and ruin everything, didn’t he?

“God damn it Felix!” He cursed, falling into a ball on the floor.

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I don’t love you

I love you

I fucking love you

I need you…

He let out a low breath, attempting to regain his composure and only slightly succeeding. He stood up shakily, his legs wavering slightly beneath him. "F-Fuck..." He breathed, slowly making his way to the locked bathroom door. He let out another shaky breath and hesitantly knocked on the door.

“R-Ryan…?” He called softly, feeling awkward and giddy. He heard a small sniff from behind the door, signaling that he was still in there.

Felix sighed again and ran a hand through his blonde locks, pressing his back to the door and sliding down it, just as Ryan had done. “I’m sorry, okay? I…I didn’t mean for that to happen, it just did. I screwed up… And I’m sorry. You… You can come out whenever you’re ready…” He finished, letting out a low sigh as he stood up. He heard the door unlock with am audible click and it slowly opened. There Ryan stood; his eyes blood shot and puffy from crying and his cheeks stained with tears. He sniffed and looked up into Felix’s eyes. He flung his arms around Felix’s neck and clung onto him, holding him tightly as if he was about to fade from his arms.

“Don’t leave me…” He whispered, the tears returning. Felix closed his eyes, wrapping his own arms around Ryan and rubbing his back soothingly.

“I won’t… I promise…” He whispered back, burying his head into Ryan’s soft oak hair.

“Thank you…” Felix smiled slightly.

“Don’t worry about it, Ry…”

Felix pressed his lips to Ryan’s forehead, kissing the skin softly. Ryan blushed and looked up at the blonde, getting lost in those sky blue eyes that held deepness to them. His breath became hitched in his throat and his face felt like it was on fire. He could feel Felix’s warm breath ghost on his lips… He leaned in forward hesitantly, cautious on his movements. Felix smiled softly and closed the distance, pressing his lips softly against Ryan’s. This time Ryan melted into Felix’s warm embrace, his lips molding against the other’s.

They pulled away and pressed their foreheads together.

“I love you…” Felix whispered softly, still hesitant on what he was saying. Ryan closed his eyes and leaned against Felix’s chest.

“I love you too…”  

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