CallMeKevin, Can't Help Falling In Love

Thoughts

Why is it so hard for me to just be happy? Something good happens to me, and as soon as I get out of it's sight, I go back to thinking of all these things. Horrible things. Maybe true. Maybe lies. I don't know. Either way I don't want them here, 'kevin just pities you', 'why would he like someone like you', 'hes gonna hurt you'. "STOP!" I can't do this anymore I hate these stupid ass thoughts. I want them gone. I want to just be happy. But my brain won't let me. I thought about texting Kevin and saying something like, 'I don't think we should hang out anymore, you don't deserve someone like me, I had fun Kevin' but I knew that was a bad idea. I shouldn't text him this late. Especially not something like that. I should sleep. I'm going to sleep.

*NEXT MORNING*

( Text message format: Bolded )

Kevo- hey mack! Good morning! I had fun yesterday. Hope you slept good! :)

Mack- hey kevo! I also had fun. I'm glad you did as well. I slept well! Thanks for asking! Hbu?

It felt wrong lying to Kevin. I didn't sleep well. Everything else was true though, I had fun, and I am glad he did.

Kevin- I slept well thank you very much. Would you like to do it again sometime? Maybe tomorrow? I would say today but 2 days in a row is just an odd way to hang out unless you have a sleepover, and I would say out relationship isn't quite there yet XD

mack- I would love to!! Thanks for asking me kevo! And I agree! What do you want to do next tomorrow then?

Kevin- XD HAHA! How about a movie? My house? Of course only if your comfortable if not we can do something else or go to your house or something.

I love when he did that. He made me feel comfortable. Although I will admit, I am a bit nervous to go to his house, not becuase I don't trust him, but I feel like that's a very STRONG step in a relationship.

Mack- actually that would be super fun! As long as your not going to murder me lol!

Kevin- no promises ;) and also I'll pick you up at 5?

Mack- okay yeah and XD

I was actually excited to hang out with kevin, he's a really nice person. I'm just afraid of my own self falling in love, not that I am. Tomorrow couldn't roll around fast enough.

I spent the rest of the day just moping around thinking, thinking about everything bad that could happen, everything that could go wrong. Why can't I just be happy and not think about him killing me for 5 seconds?

*TIME SKIP TO NEXT DAY*

BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BE-

GOD I HATE ALARM! I had to set one because I needed to make sure I had coffee, shower, some makeup, and a nice outfit on. I hardly every do all of those things, usually just one or two of them at a time. I decided I should shower before I drink coffee becuase showers make me tired.

I walked to the bathroom stripped off my clothes and got in the shower. In the shower I couldn't help but think about Kevin... And.... Things.... I was naked and he was.... I don't uh.... The shower was nice!

Ok dont judge me I didn't want to think them in tried to stop but I just couldn't.

After I took a shower I decided to put some clothes on, drink some coffee, eat some lunch and after that there was still 3 hours until he came to pick me up. I was so nervous I was going to be in HIS house. What does this mean for us? I don't know but I hope it's something good.

*TIME SKIP TO 5 OCLOCK*
*KEVINS POV*

I went to pick up mack. I'm so fecking nervous. SHES coming to MY house. I don't know what to do. I can't fall for her. Ive only known her for a day. What if I do fall for her? I don't know.

*MACKS POV*

Hes almost here. Oh no. What do I do. I've hung out with him before it's fine. But it was in public. I'm scared. *Knock knock* "shit shit shit shit shit... COMING" I grabbed my phone wallet and keys and walked to the door. I stood there for a second. And then I opened it. There he stood, 6'1 pale, handsome, Irish Kevin. "Hey...." He seems nervous. "You look nice and comfy.... Good, we are watching movies after all glad you were smart, I'll have to change into sweatpants when we get back to my house i don't know why I wore jeans." I love it when he rambles like that, he does it a lot and it is the cutest thing. "You got a smart one in your hands" I don't know why I said that. That makes it sound like we are together, dammit. "Heh you could say that XD" "well we should get going" he stated almost... sexily. It was In a deep, slow tone. NO STOP IM NOT ATTRACTED TO HIM.

When we arrived at his house we decided on the notebook, I don't know why. It's just a good cheesy movie. "you've watched this before right?" He just chuckled and nodded at me. "Do you cry?" I said with a sly tone. "Uh...yeah, sometimes" I just chuckled, I kind of want to see him cry. Only from a movie though. Not from something serious. It might be cute. As we got into the movie about half way, my eyes got heavy. "Damn, can I turn the lights off?" He looked at me with also tired eyes and smiled, "I'll get it don't worry". Damn the things this man does to me already. I don't trust it. He's to nice. GODDAMMIT WHY. "Hey do you want me to get a blanket? We can go to sleep if you'd like, I can go to my room and you can crash here or you can have t-" I cut him off by putting my hand over his hand softly. "Kevin, can't we just fall asleep like this? Aren't you comfortable?" He looked shocked but smiled from ear to ear, "of course we can, i just didn't know if you would be uncomfortable." I smiled and layed a pillow on his lap, soon after laying my head on it. He layed his head back on the couch with the biggest smile on his face. Oh how that smiled warmed my heart.

So this is about the length that all of the chapters are going to be, I hope that's fine! This is also my first story ever so my creativity is not SUPER strong yet, I've written many just never published them.

Ok I just needed to post this picture becuase I loved the hot tub stream and this is a screenshot I took from it.