Bad girl gone good

All Around The World

Getting up this afternoon wasn't the challenge I thought it would be. I had another one of the nightmares about Nick last night, only this time it was a little different. Instead of school we were at my house after the party and I was angry about something I found in his phone. I've known for a while now that I had a gift of sight in my dreams. I found out that my mother practiced something like voodoo when she was my age. She had crazy dreams that would always tell her what was going to happen before they did. I guess it was hereditary because I got it and my aunt said that my grandmother used to be able to outsmart her and my mom all the time. With me having dreams like this back to back means Nick is up to something and/or we have a storm coming our way and I can see how it's going to end with us. Since I was up way earlier than I expected, I decided to go shopping for a new outfit for the concert tonight and get my nails done. I wanted to be the best looking girl in the entire arena when Prince sees me tonight. I found the perfect dress and shoes at Nordstrom's and after getting my nails redone I got some lunch at the Corner Bakery cafe around the corner. I was sketching some designs on my iPad when I heard someone whisper my name but nobody I knew was there. I gave the room a good scan before turning my attention back to my sketches. "I must be trippin," I said to myself, taking a sip of my tea. I heard the whisper a few more times but I still didn't see anyone. Just thinking I was tired and needed a nap I decided to head home but something stopped me in my tracks as I was unlocking my car. I hadn't talked to Nick all day, I just assumed he was still sleeping but I knew the real reason why. I looked over to the Saks Fifth door where I saw MY BOYFRIEND making out with my cousin. My first thought was to go over there and beat the shit out of both of them but I heard the whispering again but this time it was saying wait. I took a few pictures knowing I could use them to my advantage later and got in the car to see what they were going to do next. I could see them laughing and smiling as he carried all the shopping bags to the car. Where the hell did they get the money to buy all of that stuff? My cousin doesn't have a job and Nick's mom takes care of him and she's not even close to middle class. I saw them drive off towards the other shopping centers and I just went home. I had seen enough and couldn't afford for it to ruin my day. As far as I'm concerned right now, I am a single woman and I knew from these dreams that he and I had some trouble coming our way. I started to listen to music to keep my mind off what I just saw. I can believe them! After everything I've done for both of them?! I had to really think about my next move, it was time for me to get ready for the concert. I got dressed, styled my hair and put on a little bit of makeup before dashing out the door for the night. I'm going to try to have a good time tonight and I'll just deal with this mess later.

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"Thank you and enjoy the concert," security said after scanning my backstage pass ticket and letting me into the area. I paid for the best seat in the entire arena and I wasn't going to let what happened earlier fuck up the one night I've been waiting all year for. I took my seat and decided to just scroll on social media before the opening act. I kept hearing that whisper for me to check Nick's Instagram. I ignored that little voice for as long as possible; I just knew it was more bullshit and honestly it's a little too much. When I finally tried to go to his profile I noticed I couldn't find him anywhere on the app, but I could find one of his best friends'page and what I saw made me want to chuck my phone across the room. This boy had the audacity to be in my house with my cousin with what looked like thousands of dollars from one of my stash spots. The post said "Proud of my boy and his girl. They out here doin' it big." At this point I am livid and just as I was about to get up and go check all of their asses the first act came onto the stage. This shit is aggravating and I honestly don't know how I'm going to address it all. I sat through the first couple of acts that I really enjoyed but my mind was elsewhere. When I heard the boys come on stage I couldn't even be excited. I sat there screen-shooting all the info I needed to prove that Nick and Alicia were together behind my back. I even set up an appointment with a 24 hour locksmith to get all of my locks changed. I didn't even realize I sat through the first half of the show until a  security guard came up to me and asked me to follow him, assuring he'll have me back before the rest of the show. When we went around to the dressing rooms I realized the guys probably saw me and just wanted to say what's up. When the guard opened the door to one of the dressing rooms nobody was in there. "Have a seat ma'am, I'll have you back to your seat before the next set." He said nicely before exiting and closing the door. The next thing I knew Prince was coming out of a room inside the room half dressed. "Hey mami what's up with you? You seem pissed off," he said buttoning his shirt. I couldn't help but look him up and down. He is so fine and I'm so tempted to at least kiss him. "I'm okay, it's just a lot on my mind right now." I said turning my attention back to my phone. "I know that you've been on your phone the whole night. I even saw you try to leave, What happened?" He questioned. I could tell that he was actually concerned about what was going on. "Long story short my boyfriend is cheating on me," I said trying to keep it short. I wasn't sure he was the person I should be telling this to right now. Usually Jontae would be the first person I'd tell something like this to but I know she'd go try to go fight them before I could do anything about it. When I looked back up at Prince he looked like he was in shock. "Are you okay?" I asked putting a hand on his shoulder. He grabbed my hand, gave it a kiss and said "I'm alright, I just can't believe someone would hurt someone as beautiful as you. The real question is are you okay? What are you going to do about it?" he asked, still holding my hand tightly. I could tell he care but I also knew that he was hoping that I would leave Nick and be with him so I had to tread carefully with what I tell him. "To be honest with you, I'm not sure what to do. There's way more to the story I just don't want to talk about here and now, " I said, taking my hand out of his and backing away.  I felt like I was telling him way too much. The security guard knocked on the door so I knew it was about time for him to go back on. "If you want to talk about it later I'll come over and keep you company. Just let me know what you want to do. I have to go but just text me when you're ready." He said taking my phone and putting his number in. He gave me another peck on the lips and ran out the open door while putting on his shoes. The security escorted me back to my seat just as the boys were coming back out. For the rest of the show I just tried to keep my attention on them. I was here for them anyway and it would be a waste of money if I didn't at least enjoy one song and get some pictures and videos. By the end of the show I was feeling somewhat better, I bought a few t-shirts so I could have each one sighed by each of the guys. When it was my turn all the guys greeted me with hugs and thank yous for coming. We took a few pictures and I got them to sign the shirts even though I knew I could have them signed later. I assured Prince I'd text him later before exiting and going to my car.  I texted Jontae and let her know to meet me at my house in an hour and took off towards my house. It was time to get some things in order and first things first is to break up with Nick. How am I going to do it? I don't know, but I have to. What they're doing is bullshit and disloyal and downright disgusting. I wonder how long this has been going on. He couldn't have fucked with any other bitch besides my cousin? What should I do now? All these questions were swirling in my head as I made my way to my house. I need to come up with a resolution and fast.