My Professor {18+}

10.

I was dying for an orgasm, Carter hasn't touched me since the first time and that was killing me. I get he was trying to get me acquainted with his sex life but I don't know how much I could really take before I just sit on it myself.... it's a lie, I wasn't bold enough but I did want him...I craved him.

A side from Carter I felt like the days were getting away from me, I just felt so overwhelmed.

The next few days felt hectic, I couldn't find an apartments that was cheap enough for me and James wasn't trying to give me extra hours PLUS it was taking me forever to pack and the school work and test were drowning me...It was all too much.

Also, getting up at 4am just to catch the bus to school was not doing it for me at all.

Today I was trying to make it through, I was exhausted and just felt drained to the point where sweatpants and a t-shirt was starting to become my own personal school uniform.

"Ayana" suddenly I was hit in the shoulder hard, I hadn't even realized I fell asleep but everyone was staring at me including Carter with a confused look on his face "Yes Professor Moore" he cleared his throat looking stern
"I asked you what agoraphobia is"
I cleared my throat rubbing my eyes "Uhh the fear of crowds, a fear of public places and feeling unsafe" he nodded "What are the symptoms?"
"Fear of leaving home, waiting in line, open spaces and closed spaces" I said nervously, his eyes always made me nervous "Thank you Ms Rose, try and stay awake in my class or stay home...see me after class" I nodded and best believe i stayed up mostly because I was irritated he put me on blast.

Once everyone left he closed his classroom door "What's going on?"
"What do you mean Professor?" I smiled sitting on the edge of his desk but he just looked serious "Ayana... what's going on with you? You look like you haven't gotten any sleep which you aren't because your falling asleep in my class" I groaned rolling my eyes and getting off his desk "I'm sorry for falling asleep in your class I'll do better" I walked toward the door but he grabbed my arm and pulled me back "I'm sick of your attitude Ayana"
"Then do something about it or mind your business"
He took a deep breath and rubbed his forehead "You don't know how hard it is for me to hold back with you sometimes " he looked up at me "I told you that you are my concern meaning your business is my business" I rolled my eyes "I'm not your girlfriend Carter, it's just sex and we haven't even done that"

"Why you think I ain't fucked your Ayana? Your not mentally and physically okay enough for me to be touching you, just tell me what's going on"I sighed feeling my eyes start to water but I really didn't want to cry in front of him "I'm being forced to move, i can't get any extra hours for work, I have to wake up early to catch the bus to get here and well this" i gestured around the classroom "Where are you moving?" I shrugged "That's a good question and when I get the answer to that I'll let you know...can I go?" He licked his lips then nodded.

I walked out going to the bus stop before I missed it which unfortunately I did. I sighed sitting down not wanting to call Ali to come get me "God I am not your strongest solider so whatever your doing please stop" I said looking up at the sky then down at my phone, instead of calling Ali I decided to call my mom.

"Hey stranger"
I chuckled
"Hey momma, how are you?"
"Well you know just working, how are you we miss you here?"
I sighed feeling my eye start to water, I'm about sick of this crying shit to
"Honestly mom, I'm not okay"
I wiped the tears coming down my face
"Awe honey what's wrong?"
I proceeded to explain to her my whole situation hoping she would understand and maybe help me a little
"Awe honey...I'm sorry it's just apart of being an adult"
I sighed
"Mom I'm asking for just a little help...please"
"Ayana, we've all been there and I'm sure you'll figure it"
Sadness was quickly replaced with anger
"I've gotten this far by myself I'm just asking for a little help...I can't do this alone...I have no where to go"
"You can and you will Ayana, stop being a baby about it and grow up"
I scoffed
"Are you kidding me?! Grow up?! What do you think I've been doing for all these years, I've been working my ass off to get here and I did...I've never asked you for help but the one time I do you tell me to stop being a baby?! Do you know what that does to me?!" I yelled in the phone
"Ayana I don't care. You'll figure it out, love you bye."

I groaned throwing the phone down on the ground by accident, I looked down and rolled my eyes as I seen the pieces of my once perfectly good phone all over the ground . Here come the fucking tears I felt them stream down my face as I decided to just walk instead of dealing with Alizé.

"Get in the car Ayana"
I didn't even hear anyone pull up next to me but it was Carter "Get in the car or I'll throw you in " not feeling like putting up at fight I just got in .

No words were spoken the whole drive and before I knew it we were pulling up to his condo. I didn't have the energy to ask why he brought me here instead of my place, I just got out and made my way to his condo.

I went to the room I slept in the first night which was the guest room and cracked open my books and started studying "What are you doing?" I looked around the room "isn't it obvious" I heard him sigh then he started taking my books "Carter what are you doing?" He didn't answer, he snatched up all my books, papers, and bag "Go to sleep Ayana" and then he closed the door. I took a shower and put on a white button up I found in the closet then went to sleep.