My Professor {18+}

31.

A week later

"I already turned in my resignation" I sat across from Carter in the living room on the verge of tears. This is the first time we spoke in a week, I would be able to go back to school on Monday now that he resigned because the investigation would be pointless now and you would think that would make me happy right? No.

Because of everything I said he is now going back to New York to continue his work for his company and I felt like shit.

I didn't mean what i said, I couldn't even remember what I said I was just pissed and overwhelmed about everything and I took it out on him, no apology could make up what I had done. He was pissed at me and didn't care for anything I had to say plus we still had no clue on who knew about us and that was fucking with my head.

"This place is owned by me so you can stay here for as long as you need, until you finish school if you like, and I'll leave the mustang for you to get around" he got up to walk past me but I got up and stood in front of him "I don't want it" I said but he sighed rubbing his hands down his face "Don't be ridiculous"
"Carter I'm sorry and I know you don't wanna hear any of that but I didn't mean it" I felt a tear fall from my face "I don't want you to leave"
"I don't care about what you want Ayana, I heard what you said loud and clear"
"I didn't mean anything i said and I don't want any of this without you" I dropped my head in his chest as he stood in front of me and he wrapped his arms around me "I told you that if you kept having doubts then I would have to end this and you said you would try and get it together Ayana, what you said a week ago made it clear to me that you see me as someone that would take advantage of you for my own self needs when that was never the case...I can't make you happy and I'm tired of trying" he kissed my forehead and moved me to the side "I still care for you regardless of what you believe so I have to leave in order for you to finish school and I'm okay with that"
"But I'm not"
"I don't care"

I know what y'all are thinking cause I'm thinking it to...

I'm just about the dumbest bitch to let this good man go and I regret ever doubting him and if Janelle knew she would probably be cussing me out.

My phone rang and it was my dad, I had been dodging them since they came in town last week cause I haven't had time to come up with any lies for them but I also didn't feel like boosting their parental ego having them think they raised their daughter in the perfect possible way when that was far from true.

I didn't have time to worry about my parents as I was trying to think of ways to get Carter to now leave and call me selfish if you want, I don't care.

I walked upstairs and watched as he packed the rest of his bags "What time is your flight Carter?" He looked at his watch "7"
"And what are you flying"
"Delta" I nodded taking my phone out and taking it upon myself to buy a ticket to the same flight "What are you doing Ayana?"
"Buying my ticket" next thing I know my phone was snatch out my hand and thrown against the wall on the side of the room "MY PHONE!"
"I BOUGHT THAT FUCKING PHONE!" He yelled back, I never seen him this mad especially at me "I didn't ask you to"
"You didn't ask me to do a lot of shit that I did because I cared about you" he sighed "and I'm trying to be nice to you Ayana and do what's best"
"And you leaving me here is what's best for me?"
"It's what's best for me" he said going back to packing, I grabbed his bag and threw it across the room "NO! YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE BECAUSE I MADE A MISTAKE, THAT'S NOT FAIR!" He just looked at me and at this point I was full blown crying "I said something stupid okay but it's not fair that you get to leave just cause I said something out of anger, I could of left when I seen you talking to the girl at 2 am or when you told me you were a sadist but I didn't....I stayed so please don't leave because...I love you, I'm in love with you and I won't be able to take it if you leave me" he sighed rubbing his forehead and we stood there in silence for which felt like forever, he didn't even look at me.

"Please say something" I wish I hadn't said that because his next words would break me "I don't love you Ayana." I could feel my heart break as those words left his mouth "I don't want to be with you and I don't want to come to New York with me....we're done" he walked past me picking up his bag and finished packing.

I left the room and curled up on the couch in my own self pity.

There was nothing I could do.

Carter didn't want me anymore, I poured out my heart to him and he didn't care and I could no longer beg him.

I love him but if he didn't feel even the slightest towards me then I had no choice but to let him go.

He came down the stairs after awhile with 2 bags in his hand, he looked at me and let the bags hit the floor "I meant it when I said you can stay here for as long as you need" he dropped the house key on the living room table "I'm sorry for breaking your phone" then dropped a wad of cash on the table "Knowing you, you probably won't use any of this" he chuckled "although you owe me nothing, don't struggle because of your hatred for me" he picked up his bags and walked to the front door "Take care Ayana" and in only a week, I lost him.

Carter's POV

Little did she know...walking out that door was the hardest thing I've ever had to do.