My Moods and More

What is Us? (Rant) Don't judge

I been doing a lot of thinking. I know there's a lot of communities out there: Nationality, Sexuality, or religion preference. What does it mean to be part of a community? Why do they say, "Thank you for supporting us," as if they suddenly are a whole new group of people and you're just the foreigner? Does it mean that when someone joins a community those who support them means less now? Does it mean that you aren't allowed to be part of their lives because you're not part of the group?

It's like people change and they treat you differently. Almost like when people get into relationships or have kids that your friendship is put to the test. Will they still ask if you like to come over even though you don't have kids? Will they still call or text when you don't believe in the same thing?

I've had to experience that a lot and now the community thing? I can't catch a break! It's already bad enough I have a bullseye on my back, but to support those who doesn't consider that their supporter may need support as well makes me feel like I don't matter that much anymore. I was only there when needed.

Looks like it will always be like this. Be the supporter, but never be supported. Let's see if I live through this. Right now? The odds of survival is stacked against me. Goodbye everyone. I don't know if I'll be back.