Oh have I told you that im 18 now and my parents decided to buy me an apartment even though at first the didnt want,I live alone since Mia is still living with her parents.
Mia and Zayn have a key for my appartment wich means they can come anytime they want.But this has to change I need the key back from Zayn I dont want him in my life anymore.
My life was such a mess but he messed it more.Urgh I hate him.But still...I cant really hate him...
Even though how much he hurts me,how many times he lied to me Im still there for him because that's just me.Stupid person
.Anyway lets forget this ,from now and on Im never going to call him or see him.Even if I see him somewhere I'll just ignore him. Im so angry man.Is he fucking with my nerves? Huh.
When I arrived home I closed the door from behind so nobody could open it.I wanted to be alone for some moments.I lay in bed and start to think about everything
.I remember that day I gave him my number at the starbucks.Urgghh what a stupid girl am I ?. I made so many mistakes letting him in my life.
Suddenly some tears stream down my face.Its just I cant take it anymore.I think I've started to love him more than a friend.I know this should'nt happen,but I have nothing to do.Its just these feelings are so stupid.
I need my old life back.I cant handle this anymore.Im tired of everything that has to do with Zayn.But I cant just throw him away...I still need him as much as I need Mia...
What shall I only do...Right now I think imma call someone that im 100% sure will help me.Harry.
''Hey Harry''I said and hugged him, as I opened the door and let him in.
''Hey babe whats up,and why are your eyes red and so puffy?''He said with a worried look ok his face.Arghh theyre from all the tears I had
.''Oh its nothing dont worry''.
''Look Harry promise you wont tell anyone the things we're about to talk''
I said to him and he smiled. ''Dont worry babe im here for you everytime you need me , but sorry for asking,isnt Zayn supposed to be here right now instead of me,I mean you guys are best friends''He kinda asked.
''Urghh forget it its not like he really cares''I said to him being honest.
''What happened?''He asked
.''Urgh its just we were having a sleep over ,and we didnt had one in a month,and we barely had seen each other ,so this night was meant to be for the days we missed,
but he had to leave because Perrie called him and he had to go,plus he said that I could stay there alone and he'd come tomorrow,well im sorry Zayn but im not gonna be a toy anymore,since this isnt the first time he is leaving me alone''
I told him as some tears were falling from my eyes.''Oh I understand Jes,but hey you know that Zayn really loves you and he isnt doing this on purpose and the last thing he would do is hurt you''
He said as he pulled me in a hug.Huh if only that was true,arhh,he doesnt know anything.''You dont know anything Harry''I said to him looking in the floor.
''Haha I know more than you think Jes '' He said laughing a bit.''You have no idea how much Zayn talks about you he is always like ''Jes and me did this'' ''Jes and me did that'' he really loves you Jes,and belive me or not,the way he talks about you its like he is talking about the love of his life haha'' He told me.
Oh my god this cant be true,he cant like me,or can he?''Nah''I said.
''Trust me ,it was this time we were in Australia and Zayn got really drunk and we wanted to have a bit fun so we palyed truth and dare,and when Niall asked zayn ''Whats the first thing you would do with Jes if she was your gf?''
and he simply said ''Bro I'd fuck her all the time,trust me the times she gets angry she is the hottest thing alive''and I belive his sober heart said that,and its not all about that youre hot as hell Jes,but its also the time when he said he loves you,and he wasnt drunk that time''
Harry told me making me blush at the part ''youre hot'
. ''Look Harry,the last months,I've been feeling someting more about him,but I just can excplain it...And I dont want him to know about this,because he doesnt feel the same,and besides he has a girlfriend so...''
I said to him and I felt my cheeks blushing even more.Oh my god.Did I just told that to Harry?.Shit.''Hahh I knew it, I swear I knew that you and Zayn had something special for each other,but you guys just wont admit it haha
'' I hear Harry laugh.''Oh shut up,its me the one that has something''special'',not him,he feels something special too but not for me , he feels something for Perrie.''I told him,as I was a bit sad.
