The diaries of booboo volume 1 (reupload)

Part 4

24th September 2019

Me and Henny haven't spoken since the messages and Lorri ghosted me as well. It doesn't matter anyway she's dating some jerk feather-ball player, oh wait it's my best friend Henry. The rich one, Ugh I should have known all that Lorri wanted was status. Geraldine walked in and asked what I was getting her for her birthday next week, she's turning fourteen can you believe it! Guess it's a good distraction.

25th September 2019

Today when we were having dinner my mum and Dad held hands and told me that my mum was pregnant! I can't believe it, My mum is having a Chic, she laid the egg this morning and in 21 days I'll have a little baby running around our coop. We are yet to tell the Landlords, they demand to know all this stuff for some reason, I guess my dad will go tell them tomorrow. I thought my parents were super happy about it, they looked like they were, but after dinner they started fighting. I heard my mum yell out something about Lorraine Keet. That's Lorri's mum, do they know about what happened with me and Henny??? What's going on?

26th October 2019

My dad left today. I came home and he wasn't there. Then Lorri texted me, for the first time in over a month. She walked in on My dad and her mum doing... well I don't want to say it. I can't believe it. Well I guess I should, after all I cheated on Henny and my parents aren't together anymore I guess, but Lorri said that my dad has been there all night. He's just sitting on Lorri's couch drinking wine and eating Cheezels, that's what he used to do after dinner when he still lived with us. Oh and Mum gave birth to baby Ovibelle late last night. It's been tough on us all, money is low. Dad tried to get Geraldine the best present money could buy, but I guess it doesn't matter if he isn't home. Mum still has a job at least, working as a university lecturer, the money is good, I think she just needs to save with the new baby and all, but I believe in her.

27th October 2019

Today I started crying in Health, there has just been a lot of build up to today, you know, with Henny and lorri and my dad and Ovibelle, Geraldine isn't coping well either and it hurts me so much to see little Dina crying all the time. Henny saw me crying and came to comfort me. Henry was too busy making out with Lorri to notice, but Henny walked with me to the bubblers and gave me a hug. It was the best feeling ever. I felt like I was floating in her arms. When she pulled away you could see the pain in her eyes. This wasn't just a hug that comforted me, it tore her apart. The deep, heart shattering pain could be seen from a mile away. Our conversation goes as follows:

"Henny I-"

"Booboo, stop, not right now"

"If not now then when Henny? We need to talk about this eventually"

"Do we?"
"Henny I can't put into words how much I miss you, my life has been hell lately and it's not just my parents, I need you in my life Henny, you ARE my life"

"Booboo..."

"No Henny, listen, I know that I hurt you. It's impossible for me to not to know, I still get the urge to text you and then I remember that you won't respond. I know that what I did is unforgivable and I'm not asking you to forgive me, all I want is for you to acknowledge my existence again.

"Today, I know you were just trying to make me feel better, and maybe that's all, but for me it shows that you still care and I know that little bit left is enough that you can talk to me. Henny... just give me a chance. I know what I had with you was special and I know that you are the only Hen in all of the world that can make me feel anything at all, Lorri only made me feel worse. Every time I see you my stomach drops to the floor, then my butterflies lift it up again. It's agonising. It feels like you're tearing me apart just by existing, slowly ripping my soul from it's seams until all that's left is a mess of what was once Booboo"

By this point, tears were streaming down my face. Henny began to cry as well.

"Booboo, I love you and I always will. I want to be with you all day and all night. I want to be with you more than we were before, but right now I'm scared. I don't want to get my heart broken again and I just can't handle that. It's still easier for me to try and ignore you than it is for me to be friends with you, we...we could never just be friends Booboo and you know that very well, don't put me through that."

"But Henny, I know what it feels like, we can suffer through a friendship, but at least we would be suffering together."

"Booboo please..."

"No Henny, you've had it your way for months now, why can't we try my way?"

"Okay" she said and then turned and left.

Okay? And then she just left? It doesn't make sense, but at least it's something. I'm serious, I love that girl and I WILL marry her if it's the last thing I do.