The diaries of booboo volume 1 (reupload)

Part 6

26th January 2020

This new guy Griffin joined our musical theatre class (which I'm surprisingly really enjoying) and he knows Henny. He said that they're friends and he was praising her for like ten minutes. It annoyed me so I told him that me and Henny had dated for ten years. His face went white and he shut up, that's what he gets. I found out that he does these classes that teach you how to produce music or something and he's helping Henny produce some songs to make a little album, he said that she just wants to do it for fun, but he thinks the songs are really good and she could probably release them. I hope she does, maybe there is one about me.

I texted Henny about Griffin to see if there is anything going on between them:

Heyy Henny, this new guy joined my musical theatre class, his name is Griffin and he told me your making some songs together???

You're doing musical theatre and you didn't tell me. I would love to do that with you could you tell me which class you take and where? Also yeah I wrote some songs for fun and Griffin is helping with the backing tracks and stuff, he's really talented.

Cool, would it be okay if I heard them???

Yeah that would be fine. Some of them are really personal, and I'm sure you'll know what they are about, I was actually gonna invite you to the completion party on the 27th of February because you're such a huge part of the album, would that be okay?

Yesss! Can't wait!!!

Haha. You know Booboo I really DID love you and I hope we can be good friends again soon.

I was going to say I love you too, but I realised that Henny said it in the past tense.

27th february 2020

Today is the day of Henny's album party. I'm so excited to hear the songs, not so much to see Griffin though. I did my feathers up all nice and I'm about to leave, the party starts at six. Okay. Phew. I. Can. Do. This!

I walked in to Henny's house at exactly 6:00pm and when she opened the door I- she looked beautiful. The same face I fell in love, with the same eyes, the same smile, until it faded into a face of distant joy, a face that remembered the love we shared and held on just for that memory. Henny had become the love of my life and I had made a mistake and then she left... stopped talking to me just like that. Like it was nothing, I know how obsessed she is with Griffin, everyone does, me and Henry still talk about it, we all used to hang out all the time, and now she is just so... distant. I knew that she didn't invite me over to spend time with me, she invited me over because I was a huge part of her life for a while, until she found someone else. The way she looked at me wasn't the same, that faint gleam in her eyes, like a gold plated necklace that has been scuffed, like the gleam of a star that appears only in your dreams, enough for you to know it's a star, but that's about it. Memories, that's all we are now. Two memories standing in front each other watching the relationship we once had dissolve more everytime we see each other. I know she is going to get closer with Griffin, perhaps closer than we've ever been, and maybe he is the one for her, I don't know, but all I know is that I can't take this anymore. We spend time together, but we aren't dating, we talk, but we aren't friends. What are we? Maybe I speak for myself here, but I am hurting, and I'm sick of it. I can't stand here and watch that little gleam fade anymore than it has, can't engage in half hearted conversation with someone that I used to spend hours talking to only to wait for their new phase to walk in and have them ignore me. I deserve better than that. I may have done a horrible thing, I admit that, but I've suffered for that. I've felt the pain that I needed to feel to pay for hers, but this is too much. I have tried for months to get closer to Henny without any effort from her. When she said I was bored she was lying and she knew it. SHE was bored, and I knew that and tried to fill the hole that she left by engaging in a temporary relationship. And the hurt wasn't the guilt, it was knowing that it was over. It was me struggling to accept the truth.

I don't want to be sitting on the sidelines watching their relationship, she dropped me and if she's fine with that then I am too!

"Goodbye Henny."

"What but you only jus-"

I didn't need or want to hear it. Her response would either be to brush it off or blame herself so intensely that it feels fake, even if it isn't. I didn't need her explanations, her 'wisdom'. I didn't need her to drag me along any further. SHE was the one that wanted a break, and when I texted her SHE kept talking. SHE invited me to her album party, just so I could see her all over Griffin. She likes the power, she feeds off it and I am quite willing to let her starve.

Good bye Henny...

Congratulations you have just completed one of the greatest stories of all time. Never fear there will be more, I just thought that would be a good place to end the first book. Thank you so much to all my WONDERFUL supporters, I wouldn't have been able to do it without you. Love you all, thank you and stay tuned. :)