My Idol (Xingyun)

Chapter 26: Beer Bottles

Since I'm not updating tomorrow, I thought I'd update today instead!

And y'all thought we were out of the angst. MWAHAHAHAHAHA

Tw: Abuse, gaslighting

Song: Fever by ENHYPEN
Art: I couldn't find the artist again 😭

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"Chongyun, do you know why she was crying?" Chongyun's mother asked, opening the door to his bedroom.

He was sat on his bed with his legs held close to his chest, head resting on top of his knees.

He froze.

"What happened? What did you do?" She sounded worried and mad at the same time.

"I..." He wanted to lie. Knowing she would get mad at him and hurt him.

"I'm n-not s-sure why..."

"You're lying. She came out of this room crying her heart out. You must have done something." His mother started to fume.

"I-I s-swear I... I d-don't kn-know..." Chongyun wanted to cry. She was going to find out. She was going to get angry. She was going to hurt him.

"You must have done something to make her cry like that. Tell me. I won't get mad, I promise." His mother said in a calm, steady voice.

She wasn't angry? She was fuming a second ago...

Maybe it's okay to tell her? Hoping she wouldn't get mad just like she said she would.

Chongyun mustered all the courage he had and told her.

"U-um... I-uh... W-we broke u-up..."

"What!? Why!?" His mother exclaimed, scaring the boy.

"I-I... Um... W-we w-weren't t-that um... i-into e-each other..."

"Are you sure? Because it seemed like she really liked you."

"W-well, um-"

"I knew it. Are you trying to make me mad?" She laughed. "This isn't the Chongyun I know and love. Always crying and faking being depressed for attention. You even slept with a boy to get me to look at you. You're so pathetic. I pay attention to you. You're just so ungrateful you don't even notice it. Stop doing this to me, Chongyun. You make everything so hard. If you just do as I say, everything would be better."

Oh... He wasn't doing that, was he? He didn't cry for attention... Did he?

"See Chongyun. You are the one causing problems for yourself and for me. Have you even considered how I feel? I've made so many sacrifices for you. I can't live my life fully with you here. If you stopped causing problems for everyone, your father and I wouldn't be fighting. Your friends hate you, and you're madly in love with that boy. But that's wrong. You know that." Whilst she was talking, she walked forward, closer to the bed, and sat down.

"You're always so dramatic... Always crying and in your room. I want to see your face sometimes. Grow up. You're not 5 anymore." Her face turned stone cold.

"Where's my Chongyun who always listened to me? Where's my sweet little boy who would do anything to make me happy? Hm?"

"Get out of my room." Chongyun said suddenly. Why did he say that? It was too late now to take it back. It didn't matter if she got mad anymore. She was making him think things that he didn't want to think.

His mother paused.

"Excuse me? What the hell did you just say!? I am your mother. You listen to me and only me. I'm the only person you have left who loves you. You don't have friends anymore. You don't have the stupid boy who never even loved you." She grabbed his hair and pulled him off the bed so he was standing face to face with her.

Her grip was strong, so strong Chongyun had to crane his neck to make the pain lessen.

She had a crazy look in her eyes. "I suffer through so much. You make it ten times harder to do anything in this house. All your crying and being overly dramatic. You don't have a reason to cry. I give you a house with a roof over your head. I give you food everyday." She pulled mercilessly on his hair while jabbing him in the stomach with her fingers.

She pulled him all the way downstairs and into the kitchen.

Empty beer and alcohol bottles were littered everywhere; around the living room, entrance, and kitchen.

She let go with a force and pushed him against the table. Bottles fell from it, clattering and smashing into the ground.

"If you really want a reason, I'll fucking give you one!" She shouted and suddenly picked up a bottle from beside her and threw it at him, hitting him in the side of the head.

Chongyun stumbled back against the table, his vision going blurry for a second.

An almost unbearable pain overwhelmed his head and a head ache broke out from the spot that was hit.

The bottle his mother threw crashed to the ground, shattering into a million pieces.

Tears poured from Chongyun's eyes, the pain and head ache too much for him, along with the screaming of his mother to get up and go back to his room.

Someone had come through the door, clattering and banging around. It was too many sounds for him to handle at once. His vision was blurry and no matter how many times he blinked, the blurriness would not go away.

He sniffled, caressing the already forming bump on his head, tears strolling down his cheeks.

His father was the one to come through the door. Now they were arguing over something Chongyun couldn't hear, nor did he want to hear.

He walked slowly away from the kitchen, his brain felt like it was rattling around inside his head.

His mind was foggy and he still couldn't think straight.

Walking slowly up the stairs, Chongyun made his way towards his room.

He didn't feel the relief he usually got when he closed the door behind him. He was still shaking and crying and scared.

Deciding to force himself to sleep, even though he wasn't tired, Chongyun got into his bed, the light already off.

He cuddled with a pillow and let tears fall. His head hurt really bad and he didn't feel safe enough to sleep.

His hands kept shaking and his breathing wouldn't even out. He closed his eyes, hoping darkness would overcome him. But it didn't.

Chongyun must've looked pretty dumb to be laying in his bed doing nothing but starring at the ceiling.

He kept looking around, worried his mother would come in and hurt him.

That night, Chongyun didn't get a wink of sleep.

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