Yours Sincerely, Louis

Mourning

12 weeks after Louis left

Halfway done. He was only halfway done. Harry couldn't believe that even after all this time he still had to wait 3 more months. However, he's kept himself busy these past few weeks after he had that talk with his mum. He's been doing countless research for his surprise because it had to be absolutely perfect. It needed to be the one.

Once he was sure he found it, he called a band meeting. Well, former band meeting really.

(Sorry if that stung)

The boys all showed up at Harry's house so he could tell them his plan. Once he explained to them what he was planning to do, the boys were bursting with joy. They couldn't wait until Louis was out of the church.

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⚠️TW: SUICIDAL THOUGHTS⚠️

Louis got out of bed for the first time in two weeks. As he went to put on his hoodie, he stopped in front of the fish tank. He immediately fell to his knees and started to sob. Edward had died. Louis had been so sick and tired that he forgot to feed him and now he was dead. The only piece of Harry that he had left, was gone. Nancy found the bears and confiscated them. She threw his letters away. She got rid of everything. Edward was the only thing left. Louis wasn't just sad that he died but more sad that he was the reason that he was gone. He couldn't be bothered to care for that fish and now he has to suffer the consequences.

What is wrong with me?

Louis thought.

It's a fish. They don't live very long. I knew he was gonna die eventually so why am I upset.

Then he started to wonder whether William was dead. And if he was, was Harry this sad? Probably not, he figured. It's just a fish. And besides, Harry's got loads of friends and family back home. He's not gonna be all sad about some stupid fish dying.

Then Louis' mind went to a dark place. He started thinking thoughts that he wished he could never think again.

Does Harry even miss me? Is he dreading this like I am? Does he even care that I'm here? What if he doesn't? What if he just moved on with his life? What would he think if I were to... Would he be sad? Upset? God would he be relieved? He's Harry fucking Styles why would he mourn over some emotionless, anorexic, depressed boy in a conversion church? I should just go ahead and do it. It's not like anyone would care anyway.

Author Notes:

I'm so sorry lol. So that was really depressing to write. My apologies. I would say I hope you enjoyed this chapter but there wasn't much to enjoy. So I guess all I can say is I'm sorry for causing you pain and remember to TPWK unlike I did.