Back for Me

ch3

Harry’s POV

I woke up to my phone going nuts so I look over and sure enough I had 143 texts from Louis one from Liam and one from Niall. Guessing it was something important since I had a message from each of the guys I opened my phone just as I was receiving a call from Louis.

“Harry did you see what that fucking asshole did” was the first thing that left Louis’ mouth. He caught me off guard so I was in shock and didn’t really know how to respond. He took the hint and went on

“Zayn gave away the watch you gave him! That asshole is trying to forget we ever existed! I can’t fucking believe him he was never like this! He turned into such a douche bag. First he splits up the band and now this!” I stopped listening after he said Zayn had given away the watch. I couldn’t believe it I knew the watch wasn’t a big thing it was just an expensive joke between me and the lads but was that a sign that he didn’t care? Maybe it was his way of letting me know how furious he was at me. I’d be just as mad at me if I was him. I feel like I’m the reason we split. I mean yes the band had been having issues for a while but I’m the one that left. We were all affected by Zayn’s changed behavior but we all could have held on longer for fucks sake were a family families don’t just walk out on each other. It served me right. That Zayn was hurt and mad at me.

I decided to check twitter I haven’t been on much I’ve only logged on occasionally since last week and every time I’ve logged on we have been in the trending topics, every time I log on there is also a new set of news yet usually at least one of them is related to us. At one point I read one about how even moms are being affected by the bands falling part. I said things about moms having to console their daughters with no success in doing so and how there is two separate petitions out there one is a petition for moms to sign in hopes of getting the band back together and one dine by Directioners to serve the same purpose. I know Liam Niall and Louis also saw it because they called me and we discussed it, Simon tried to convince us into it but we didn’t agree because we didn’t have Zayn’s input and without one of us five we’re not One Direction.

This time I was shocked because our split was on the trending topics only once but everything else was about Zayn giving away the watch. My heart broke when all of the girls were tweeting Zayn asking him his reasons for giving away the watch. Honestly I wanted to know too. I wanted to know if Zayn had changed so much to the point where we were just a bad memory. My heart didn’t want to believe it my heart said it wasn’t true that Zayn had not thought of the negativity of his actions. My heart told me Zayn acted out of selflessness and gave away the watch because he truly wanted to help not because he was remorseful against me or the boys. Plus he probably gave away the watch because he knew there was no heartfelt meaning behind it. It was just a present behind a hallmark holiday. I hope that was the reason and not what everyone seems to be thinking. Either way the negativity kept creeping back into my mind all day. I couldn’t help but wonder if Zayn had really changed so drastically and if so was I the straw that broke the camel’s back? Did I cause Zayn’s breaking point?

After a while of sitting in my thoughts my phone lit up telling me I had a new notification. I looked at it and it was a tweet from Zayn, I was surprised this was the first time I heard from him since I walked out. Liam was the only one to hear from him after that day.

I unlocked my phone to find that Zayn tweeted

“I apologize for any confusion, I still love the lads, they’re still my family but the charity needs the money more than I do. The lads are and always will be my family. P.S. see you at the auction.”

That was when I had made my choice I would be attending the auction as well. I knew Zayn would never have done it out of spite. I was now relaxed and in a good mood. Somewhere inside I knew we would be getting over this terrible phase and things would work out for the better.

I spent the rest of the day in a good mood and enjoying my family whom I had not spent much time with since the band was formed.

As night time approached I went to my room to just have time to myself when my phone started ringing I picked it up ready to ignore the call  but stopped when I saw the caller ID read “Zayn”