Impossible

After the blip, everyone lost someone. You lost Bucky. Before Tony left he invited you to stay at the compound. He wasn't one for sentiments but he cared enough. How could you possibly go home? How could you possibly walk through the house and not see him? Having Alpine was sweet torture. You could tell Alpine missed him as much as you did. Alpine wasn't the same and being around each other was one big crying session. You let Alpine wander the compound grounds. It's the only way that cat felt some type of ease.

–

"You guys really think it is going to work?" you question as you place your hand on your mouth.

Nat and Steve look at each other,
"We owe it to the people that aren't in this room anymore," Steve replies.

As you get up out of your seat you say to Steve, "I hope you guys know what you're doing. I can't afford to lose anyone else." the room fell silent.

–

They had their trials with Bruce. You never stayed around long enough to watch them. You froze your expectations. If you don't expect, your heart won't continue to break. The thought of having Bucky back always crossed your mind. You would often pace your room late at night thinking about it. You lost sleep over it. Standing at your window you see Tony pull into the compound. You understand why Tony never came around. He had everything to lose. You know how he felt. You wouldn't risk losing what you got so lucky to have either.

–

There is a knock at your door.
"Hey Nat." you look at her in this full white gear.

"Tony figured it out. We are leaving in a few, I just wanted to see how you are doing," she says as she sits on your unmade bed.

"I'm afraid, but I'm also anxious. I want to see Bucky again. I want you all to be safe. I don't know what..." Nat interrupts you.

"We have to try, no matter what happens Y/N I need you to understand. We have a chance and it would be wrong not to take it," she stands and reaches for your hand.

"Yeah, I know. Remind me why do I have a bunch of heroes as friends? I should've just worked at a mall." your terrible attempt to lighten the mood always made her smile. She reaches for a hug. She walks out of your room.

–

" ALPINE!" you shout.

"Alpine, please! It's gonna get dark soon and I really don't wanna look for you in the dark." You search for Alpine on the grounds.

You find yourself in the trees right off the compound. Pajamas and boots searching for the dang cat. An hour has gone by, you finally spot Alpine.

After all the time you spent searching for Alpine you finally glance around. You have no idea how far you have wandered.
"Great! Let's hope we can find our way ba...."
A sudden explosion shoots you and Alpine back onto the damp dirt floor. Ringing in your ears, you struggle to sit up. Alpine still in your arms.
"What the hell was that?" you say as you stumble off the floor.

You finally make it to the edge of the woods. The compound destroyed. You stand in shock. You see a giant ship in the sky. Alpine hops out of your hands and back into the woods. You wish you could too. It's clear there is something happening on the other side of the building. You begin to dig through the nearby rubble.

You hear someone calling out for help.
"I'm here! Try not to panic, I'll find a way to get you out!" you shout back.

You begin to lift what you can. You prop yourself between a slab of cement and the last piece that's holding others down.

"On the count of 3 you push with me!" you shout down into the rubble.

"1, 2, 3 PUSH!" you struggle to push with your feet and your back pressed against what used to be a wall.

"We have to stay down and look for others, I don't know what's going on," you whisper to the agents.

"I have an earpiece, here" one of the agents hands it to you.

You hesitate, as you're about to place the piece in your ear you hear a growl. You turn to look and see outriders staring you all down.

"RUN!" an agent shouts.

You all begin to run into the woods. An injured agent falls. You turn back to help. An outrider nearing you. Snarling as it runs closer.

"Come on stand, I can't help you if you don't stand! COME ON!" you cry out.

The agent lets out a shriek and braces themselves. As you turn to look at the oncoming herd of outriders. You see one in mid-air about to strike, you turn to cover yourself and suddenly you are hit with a cloud of dust on your back.

–

You run over to the other side of the compound. Standing in shock you see the Dora Milaje, you begin to see others standing around, you see Hope, Agent Hill, Wanda. Your eyes begin racing. Searching for more familiar faces. More faces of the disappeared. Your heart about to leap out of your chest. You can't catch your breath, you continue scanning. You continue to search, Peter, Dr.Strange, Thor, and then you freeze. Your eyes land on Steve. He has tears in his eyes, you follow his gaze. Pepper leaning on Tony. Tony is gone. You crumble to your knees. The entire world seemed to fall silent. You watch as Steve helps lift Tony's body. Pepper, Rhodey, and Peter followed. You're still frozen on the floor. You press your eyes shut. Tears stream down your face. You begin to raise your head to the sky and suddenly there he is. Bucky looking right at you. His eyes begin to flood with tears. Your shoulders drop and you finally let out a breath.

–

He staggers over to you. You watch him. You don't take your eyes off of him. He drops to his knees. His eyes meet yours. You both stare at each other in disbelief.

"Y/N?" you can hear the severe unrest in his voice.

"Bucky?" you let out.

He grabs you and you bury your head in his chest. You let out an uncontrollable sob. You are in his arms, this couldn't be real.

"I'm so sorry, I'm here now," he says into your hair.

He gently pulls away from you, his hands on your face. He wipes away your tears. You have nothing to say.

"I'm here doll." He reassures you.

This couldn't be some sick twisted fever dream, this has to be real. His voice reeling you back to Earth.

"Doll, breathe please." Worry in his voice.
"I love you" he says.

Your eyes shoot up to meet his. It's the first time you've heard him say it.

"I love you more." You say as you collapse back into his arms.

"Impossible." He whispers as he cradles you in his arms.