𝓜𝔂 𝓫𝓪𝓫𝔂

Part 2

TW: Alcohol,Violence and Self Harm

POV: Landon Malik

I would rather be dead than wake up another day in this hell hole called life. There is no point anymore, But another part has to live for them, my mother and sister from my monstrous pathetic excuse of a father. This all started when my mom was pregnant with my sister, my father got fired from his job and at this time we were broke which led my dad into an alcohol addiction to take the pain away.

As I remember this day so vividly I was 7 years old at the time and my mother and I were baking cookies '' mom are the cookies ready I want one'' as I said in a bagging tone to my mother "no son you have to wait as the saying goes with patience you can avoid making hasty decisions. Life is not about living in the future or the past. Life is about accepting the present moment''. She said So I responded with '' so can I have a cookie now'' I said trying to cover up my cheeky smile, my mother just shook her head and giggled and eventually nodded, I was about to grab the cookie until the door slammed open and a scent invaded my noise than wreaked of alcohol, cigarette I turned my head to see no other than.

My father, his eyes were bloodshot red, He looked raged as he made his way and over to us and yelled out of rage'' WHY ARE YOU WASTING MY MONEY BY MAKING THAT SHIT''he said my mother quickly pushed me back behind her pregnant self  trying to protect me ,she was shaking outerly of fear until she said'' Hey dear can you please calm down all this stress is not good for the baby'' until his thin lips curled up into a wicked disgusting smile which then turned into a devilish laugh then he said'' YOU'RE SO F****ING SELFISH YOU WHORE YOU HONESTLY THINK I CARE ABOUT THAT THING IN YOUR STOMACH WELL YOU HAVE ANOTHER THING COMING FOR YOU''.my father took a step up to my mother and grabbed her by her neck as he pinned her to the well as I watched  it all right in front of me my mom struggling to be released by the hold and in a matter of time he let go and dropped her, That's when I knew I had to do something so I quickly got one of my fathers beer bottles which was empty and snuck up behind him  as he was walking to the fridge to get more alcohol until, He turned around and smiled down at me saying '' aww your going to be just like me son '' he turns to grabbed more beer , As I took the opportunity , I finally hit him in the head with the beer bottle as the glass breaks and blood comes gushing through his head before I said "I'm never going to be anything like you".

After that, I rush over to my mother to make she was okay "mommy are you okay'' as I say trying to hold my tears back, my mom opens up her arms wide for me to come in and hug her back as she says'' I'm proud of you son, you're going to be something great and deserve the best, I love you'' as I respond with a gentle smile gracing my lips '' I love you, mom, always and forever''.10 years later the abuse never stopped from the pathetic f****er as I make sure I'm always home when he's here to protect the only people, maybe one more person as well but that's for another story as the all 3 of them are the most important people in my life.

In continuation of my day, I wake up, brush my teeth as well as run my fingers through my hair and get dressed and put on my all-black basic outfit to make my way to wake up my 10-year-old sister Izzy for school. Once I knock on the the door the door opens until I'm tackled to the ground by a happy Izzy as she says '' Heyy buba'' I chuckle at her ridiculous choice of nicknames and say'' good morning Izzy bell get up and get ready for school cause I must say you're breath stinks'' she gasps and say's "toche no need to come at me like that'' in a dramatic tone as she rushes to her shower as I yell "Be down here in 10 minutes to eat your breakfast and so I can drop you off'' she yells back from the shower and replies "Okayy Buba'' I chuckle and make my way down the stairs and smile once I see my mom and give her a hug and she says "good mourning daring'' and I return by saying "good morning'' as I start to prepare Izzy's lunch for the day as I finally hear her come down and we start to head to the door until my mother stops me and say's " honey after your done school can you get some groceries for this week and come home at 7;00pm  because that's when he comes home'' suggesting him she meant the pathetic guy that calls himself my father. I respond by saying "of course".

Izzy and I head our way outside to the car as I open up the door for her and she jumps in then I get in from the other side of the car and speed to her school to drop her off. Once I dropped her off I made my way to the real hell hole called school. Once I arrived I made my way out of my car and not to my surprise, everyone was staring at me and a couple of them were even whispering secrets, I really could care less of what people thought about me as they know nothing about me. I made my way to my locker to get all of my textbooks and I suddenly felt the urge to leak the lizard. I made my way to a bathroom stall until I was utterly shocked to see my now ex-girlfriend of 3 years Violet is sucking off my ex-best friend Marcus. I feel betrayal, I feel disgusted, I feel rage. I don't even think next as all I see is red and beat the shit out of Marcus as Violet tries to yell at me to stop I completely ignored her as I kept hitting just seeing him all bloody and defenceless as I was finished up and walk out I whispered underneath my breath ''pathetic''.

I leave needing to relieve more of my anger as I'm walking towards to exit someone bumps into me  I look down and she was the most breathtaking sight ,she was stunning with her cute little self, but then images of what just happen start to appear in my head of my ex-girlfriend and ex-best friend as I hear her say  ''sorry'' I have no control of my body and grab her wrist a little too tightly as I respond with" GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY YOU WHORE''  As I finally realized what I just did to this innocent angel I instantly regret and feel that I don't need to get my rage out but I deserve to be harmed now and I quickly made out of the school and back to my car to get the blade ready for my punishment for hurting that Angel.

Abuse, addictions and self-harm are very touchy and serious subjects so please be careful I know this year has been hard but please be safe. Please leave suggestions on how to make this story better and hope you are enjoying it with beautiful viewers.
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