Rough beauty

June 19th 2021

June 19th 2021

My name is adriana, I am 21 years old, I have four siblings. Things haven't been the same since 535 days. I got married this year in January, on the twenty second day, I wore a dress and a mask and no one really ever thought weddings would be hard to celebrate. I got to choose 6 people and we only invited the people we lived with, my family, we had people watch us through what we call zoom. I grew up in a family where we didn't celebrate anything, the last time I remember we did was when I was six and my last birthday present was a lion king movie. My father is an alcoholic and my mother is too but she still has her head screwed on at least, she won't admit it yet and i think a person starts having a problem when they can't admit they've been drinking too much and they start blaming the one person who doesn't drink. I have an older brother and I'm the second child, then I have two sisters and a little brother. Currently I'm in the passenger seat of my husbands truck and my hair is everywhere, extremely puffy and it's about 108 degrees here in Phoenix. I used to draw back when I was younger but that no longer defines me, I do sing a lot at the top of my lungs for no reason and I bother my husband a lot just for the heck of it, I spend most of my time in the kitchen when I'm home. I make desserts when I'm stressed and I wash dishes when I'm mad and I mop before I shower so everything is spiffily clean. They say that there's going to be droughts coming and this virus sucks, it's slowly killing my mother, but so is life. My mom is sick of almost everything, diabetes, high blood pressure, liver, kidneys and to top it off the virus wants to take her. When she got the virus she was sick for about 2 weeks and she's a single mother now, she over works herself and she's not going to last that long. I took care of her and gave her teas, we used eucalyptus and made it into a tea to have it steam the whole house up, and all of us had humidifiers so we used a lot of eucalyptus and ginger essential oils and kept the house with open windows and we'd clean everyday after work wiped everything down so many times, everyone got sick except for me. At the time I remember I was the manager at an Einstein's and I had to deal with the closing down of my lobby and the amount of money we started losing was insane. The toilet paper would go fast, it's still happening we're just not talking about it anymore (updated September 4th ) now the Chinese apparently have two suns and the world is melting over there. Sad story, yes now I believe the world is flat let's discuss this haha. No the teachers back then in 2005 had maps of all sorts of world maps because no one knew nothing yet, I believe you still don't know yet but since all the kids are grown y'all have to have had to decided what y'all wanted the world to believe but we won't get on our knees for that like homie we went through so much while y'all were deciding. Ban this ban that . Till they don't think at all and have no thought of their own. It became their solid mission to become one string of thoughts that all led to the same end but we chased the rabbit hole and we found out all the things before you took them down. Memories go in circles. Circles are everywhere. Circles circles circles. I'm sure you'll find more.