Dear Jennie (JenLisa Short Stories) [On Going]

01. Dear Jennie (One shot story)

I have been in love with the one an only Jennie Kim since our trainee days, but... She never gave me a reason to believe she could feel the same way, so therefore I have never dared to confess, or at least that's what I convinced myself to think about, to be less obvious, and just enjoy our time together either during rehearsals, filming musical vids, YouTube special series, our Netflix Doc, touring, travelling, performing and recording our songs.

That's why people keep shipping us, "JenLisa", it actually sounds pretty cute and my heart always skip a beat when someone mentions it, ahhh it really makes me shiver, but guys I'm sorry... that ship hasn't sailed and so far I think I'm the only one sailing in those crazy dangerous waters.

Yeah we do crazy things during concerts, but it's always in a playful way, our managers don't really care and our boss either cause we get attention at least I have never gotten in troubles, Jisoo Unnie always scold us though, and about all the playing around I try to take it easy cause I may end falling on my own game and I'll probably will lose; during our VLives Jennie gets touchy but that's the way she is, it's not only me, she do almost the same with the other girls but they aren't as playful as I am, so it's less evident.

So in other words, I would love to say to Jennie how she makes me feel, how I got sooooo mesmerized with those cat eyes, and of course her sweet side and that my heart screams her name.

Everything started when she was the only one who would dare to talk to me, she was a rebel speaking to me in English when our trainers strictly prohibited it, she wasn't scared, she approached to me because she said that see me dancing made her mind just blow, I remember I was the scared one because as the only person who would get close to me there, I didn't want she get in troubles just for me.

Spend some time with her, train hard and study Korean and Japanese made my life less hard because I barely had time to miss my family and just like that, one day when I was around 17 years old I woke up thinking about her and her gummy smile, we were close with other trainees, and we started to hang around, till our big boss told us we would form a group and the rest.... well you know everything already.

Now we are waiting for another comeback, and meanwhile we got separated, Jisoo, Rosé, and Jennie have their own projects and so do I, most likely we model for our sponsor brands, we have photoshoots, and Rosé just had her solo album, I'm so proud of her, Jisoo Unnie is acting, again I feel so proud, so it means I'm home alone with my beautiful "L" family, going back to my group members they went to their own flats or their family homes, so they don't really hangout with me, if my family was here I would probably do the same.

Yeah I have been really busy but I would lie if I say I don't miss them, they all are my best friends, yeah I hardly have said that, maybe I never said this before to them, because I'm not good at expressing my feelings, and I don't want they think I'm needy, that would be embarrassing.

I wish I could fly to Thailand, but with all the quarantine thing and work I can't, it's impossible for now, even though I had a great time as a dance coach in this reality show, there's no one waiting for me at home.

I may be surrounded by people but I always end up going home alone with my babies.

So now I will have a few days off, I'll just message them to see if they wanna go for a walk or something but I know they will probably be busy, Jennie hardly replies to our chat, even though she reads all the messages, I really wonder why, Chu unnie told me they do talk a lot, and Chae said the same but maybe it's me, I'm shy to just message her, I don't really have a reason, what I'm supposed to say: "Jennie unnie I miss you? Wanna hangout?" I just thought If she says no, or that she can't I will understand, oh boy how wrong I was about that.