This is one of the most confusing times of life. I look up at the ceiling above me and realized that nothing is the same... he's really gone. We got back together about 3 months ago. I knew he was in a gang, but I didn't know it was this serious. I see him every second Friday of the month. I have to drive to the other side of town but seeing the love of my life is worth it. I was there when he got arrested. We were smoking, he told me to run so I did. The cops game and picked him up. I screamed,cried and fought bqck the police. When I opened my eyes he was gone and u was still here.