Charlotte Drinkwell

16

The door opens and i see sid on the other side and i hug him.
"Thank god your ok" i said and hold him. "And juliet?"
"She's here but she is going home" peri said in the background.
"That was unexpected of you really i thought you were going to be there" he said.
"Why would i?" I asked. "If anything it made me see how scary this all is which i know might be too late.. but i am guessing i got through to him?"
"And i did" he nods. "Thank you for trying"
I smiled.
"I am just.. glad you ok" i nod too. "I guess i will see you tomorrow?"
"We will talk" he said and i go out and then look over to the ambulance. If you don't do it i will kill you.
No.. it couldn't..
Jordan..
I run down the stairs and go to where the crime scene is.
"Who is it what happened" i begged.
"I am afraid we can't tell you" an officer said.
"Please is it jordan price?" I asked. "I am his girlfriend".
"Yes it seems most likely" he nods. "Stabbed."
I walk away and look at the time. New year. And this is how it starts? I don't feel a thing. The relief. Gone. Guilt replaces it again.

The confirmation came later that day. It was real, jordan was gone and all i had left with him was an argument.
"I am sorry i wasn't there jordan.." i mumble.
"I heard what happened" diane said when i came down at lunch. "I am sorry".
I nodded.
"I know it will be tough, especially everything that happened." She said. "I think it was related to that drug crime going on".
"It was" tony nods front page of the Chester herald"
"Yeah it was" I nod. "And I need to be honest with both of you"
They both look at me.
"What is it love?" She asks worried.
"I was part that gang, I got pulled into it for months" I tear up.
"Oh Lottie" Diane gasps. "With everything going on of course we didn't see this!"
"But how did this happen how did a good girl like you get so involved?" Tony says hurt and I look down.
"I was protecting everyone and protecting myself from everyone finding out who I really was" I tear up.
"Who you really were what was so bad to get so roped in to this something that probably more dangerous!" Diane raised her voice.
"I killed my real dad" I blurt "not Scott's we had different dad's"
"Accidentally of course?" Tony questioned.
"Yes of course he was hurting me and it was self defence" I nod but "no one will take it that way and I would be known as killer because he was very manipulative especially when my school was concerned and one day he was coming up the stairs I had done something really bad in his eyes I tried to reach out to someone find a family or ask one my friends so I can stay with them and I had a confession of his ready for the police and he found out when he saw I was packing my stuff and over heard my call to a friend who was helping me and he smashed my phone and pulled my out onto the stairs all I know is I some how managed to turn him around and he.. he feel down the stairs.."
"Oh love" Diane softens.
"And so they dug that up I am guessing and got it all wrong and even at that school word spread and they got the wrong idea and said I murdered him without knowing the full story" I finish.
"That wasn't you fault and you know it and we can never hate you it makes sense that you didn't want to tell anyone but we understand and turning to county lines was not the way to protect what was to be said" Tony answered
"They also said they would hurt you though!" I argued.
"That's still not the point Lottie because look what happened to Jordan" Diane replies.
"I know he should have stayed out when he did get out but he still had locality to stupid victor!" I sighed.
And weirdly victor had gone quiet. Was it me next? It makes sense really if he ran off. Maybe it was him maybe he did it was it him who done it! I sit there wondering what I would do I can't do anything about it but just wonder why did it happen to Jordan of all people.

Days later it was proven Charlie had done it and was arrested for it so thankful it was victor but he was still out there. I get a message from Juliet telling me to meet her which was a surprise and I go straight away to see her. It's the first day I have left the house in days and auntie di was happy to see me go out. I went to see her and she hugged me straight away.
"I thought you would hate me now?" I gasped.
"I never hated you and if anything I have a feeling your glad it's over too?" She says.
"Yeah I am" i nod. "Shame for Jordan I guess"
"How you doing anyway?" She asks.
"I mean it's hard to say that maybe I wanted being her to be good and maybe I have come to my senses that Jordan is was just a bad decision and was never a good guy but I do miss him" I said honestly.
"Of course you will" she nods. "Anyway it's not the only reason why I am here it's also to tell you that I am going to hand myself in"
"What?" I asked confused.
"I am going to hand myself in to the police for what I did" she repeats.