It Started with a Hijabi's Diary

19= Hayatuhu حياته

Starting with the name of Allah Almighty Who's Most Merciful and The One Who's free from any imperfection.

May Peace and Blessings of Allah Almighty be upon our beloved prophets, especially Hazrat Muhammad (S.A.W), their noble companions and all the true beleivers present in this world or other.
Ameen.

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بِسۡمِ اللّٰہِ الرَّحۡمٰنِ الرَّحِیۡمِ

وَ لَا تَسۡتَوِی الۡحَسَنَۃُ وَ لَا السَّیِّئَۃُ ؕ اِدۡفَعۡ بِالَّتِیۡ ہِیَ اَحۡسَنُ فَاِذَا الَّذِیۡ بَیۡنَکَ وَ بَیۡنَہٗ عَدَاوَۃٌ کَاَنَّہٗ وَلِیٌّ حَمِیۡمٌ ﴿۳۴﴾

" And not equal are the good deed and the bad. Repel [evil] by that [deed] which is better; and thereupon the one whom between you and him is enmity [will become] as though he was a devoted friend. "
(Sura Ham-meem-Assajdah
Ayat no. 34)
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If you haven't prayed yet, then I humbly request you to pray before reading this because your connection with Allah Almighty is much more important. Remeber, Salat is obligatory, this is not.
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Ilham

One of those letters that was written 8 months ago,

You know I feel weird whenever you are near me, or whenever I see you. I feel this little flutter in my heart when I see you smile.
And I pray to Allah Almighty to make it happen again and again.

I should feel guilty, but I don't. And that makes me feel guilty. I don't know why I feel like I have a connection with you.
And everytime your eyes turn to me, i feel like I am floating in happiness.

I wish I could make it halal.
Oh, how much I wish!

One of those letters that was written 7 months ago,

Today you were wearing a floral white dress, and you looked Masha'Allah so beautiful!

I was on the other side of the mosque and was just looking around (secretly for you), and then I froze when I looked at you.

You look beautiful every day, more than beautiful. But when you wore that white dress, you were looking so so so so beautiful.
Like you are an angel from Jannah.

4 months ago,

I accidentally stumbled your name infront of AbdulWadood Akhi, but Alhamdulillah I just said H, and I know that he doesn't know what that means.

Now I feel more happy nowadays, it's Ramadan, and obviously it always bring so much happiness.
Then all the love from all these people. I feel so overwhelmed and so grateful.

And also I get to see you everyday.

I feel really really happy.

In my Iftaar, Sahoor, during Tarawih, in each of my prayer you are included.

Only Allah Almighty knows how much I have prayed for you, your happiness, your health...... your love.

I know I don't deserve it at all, but I also know that I feel a connection with you that's like unlike any other.
I love you, H.

So much.

Please don't ever break my heart.

I won't be able to mend it again.