At first I clicked on the video, a little thumbnail with a green blob man and a blond, british annoying kid, as a joke.When I clicked on it, I was captivated by the screen, the drama that was paved by a few pixels of a minecraft game awoke a hyperfixation for... as of right now, 9 months, 3 days, 2 hours and-
gods calculating this made me have a stroke.
Yes at first it was a joke, "oh an angry, swearing british child what could go wrong?"
Yeah this has gone on for way too long.
Oh I look back to the days where I didn't have a practical obsession over a story that was made from a low res game, psychotic, full grown men, four traumatized kids and two women, one speaking "don't blame it on the kids," and another done with the governmental wars.
This obsession has f-ed up all of my educational scores.
Hours spent watching a minecraft world, what could be days by now watching streams that lasts hours at a time,
listening to Your City Gave me Asthma for the thousandth time,
playing Your New Boyfriend until my ears bleed,
drawing fanart until my hands ached, screaming the lyrics to Road Trip and Turn Back Time until I lose the voice that I need.
That's basically my life now.
Huddled under a blanket, reading fanfics that makes me cry
(gods please help me SBI fanficts is so sad, why does someone always have to die),
look up, oh god, is it 4am again?
Scrolling on tiktok at 5, oh prime, it's another edit of GeorgeNotFound.
Wait, did George grow out his hair?
Hm, it looks good.
Oh look a twitter noti-
DID TOMMY MEET UP WITH TUBBO?? BRB IMMA CRY MAN-
Uh oh JSchlatt's trending again, gods, good luck then.
Why is Twitter so controversial, why am I here again?
Just down another monster and try to stream when-
-I play minecraft but my computer is crap so I guess I'll just cry then.
Hey! Apparently like- 90% of us Ranboo fans are gay!
Oh crap here comes the Phil fans with parental issues, don't worry they'll be fed.
Blood for the blood god? Oh dear that's just the voices in Techno's head.
Oh god Wilbur simps? But he's gay for the egg, he once said.
God we're all messes, little homebodies that are either neurodivergent or mentally unstable that bleed red.
*pause*
I touched grass! Oh no it didn't work. I still have an obsession with minecraft men.
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