Wish I could choose who I love

024

Aubrey's POV

It's the day after billies show and Cierra hasn't texted me once since what happened. I am currently reading in the living room when my phone starts ringing. I picked it up and saw it was Kehlani, "Hey lani what's up" I said as I answered the phone. "Nothing much I wanted to talk to you about something important" She said sounding pretty nervous. "Yea what's up" I said questioning her

"You might want to talk to Cierra, She told me what's going on and it's important just talk to her" She said with I sense of sternness in her tone. "I don't know if I can after what she pulled yesterday... Lani she screamed in my face while in my house" I said starting to get riled up "I'm surprised I didn't lash out on her which I would if we talked so I need some time" I responded calmer now but still a little agitated.

"I understand you one-hundred percent i'm just here to relay the message, That she didn't mean to lash out on you like that" She told me understandingly. "Thanks so much lani I appreciate it" I told her truthfully "That's what i'm here for" She sighed followed by a laugh.

After being on the phone with Kehlani I walked into Billies office and knocked on the door. "Hey bil can we talk for a second" I asked peaking out from behind the door. "Of course my love what's on your mind" She asked while grabbing my hand and guiding me to her lap.

Well yesterday before I went to your show Cierra came over so we could hang out" As soon as I said that billie rolled her eyes. "I decided I was ready to tell her about the baby, So I did and she started screaming at me and just being rude and disrespectful" I spoke as I felt the anger slowly rise higher in my body.

I turned to look at billie and she was fuming. "Your telling me she was in my house screaming and being disrespectful to MY pregnant fiancé and i'm just finding out" She said and if steam could be coming out of her ears it would be. "I didn't want to stress you out before your show so I wanted to tell you after" I explained to her which seemed to calm her down a bit.

"I understand stand that but really what the fuck is up with her" Billie said to me and I could tell she was still upset. "I don't really know she's been kinda off recently, Like there's something bothering her" I said trying to piece everything together. "I don't care how she feels but she better not talk to you like that again" Billie spoke still visibly angry but not as much as before.
                                  The next day
Bear🐻
Hey....
I was wondering if we could meet up
and maybe talk this out
in person it will all make sense
once I explain...everything
Mush😚
Look cierra I don't know
after what you pulled yesterday
i'll have to think about it
Bear🐻
I completely understand
but please just let me explain myself
I love and cherish this friendship
Mush😚
       Sure meet me today
I have nothing to do after 1
Is 2pm good ?
Bear🐻
thank you
that's perfect actually
see you then !

I look up from my phone and I see Billie staring at me. "Hello love" she said in a little whisper snuggling into me more. "Good morning little baby" I whispered back kissing her forehead. "I'm not a baby" She spoke looking up at me with a pout on her face.

"Whatever you say love" I poke while getting out of bed and walking over to the closet. "Wait baby where are you going?" She questioned me "Oh um Cierra asked if we could meet up to talk about what happened" I told her,turning back to see her reaction let's just say she wasn't pleased. "After the shit she pulled your gonna meet up with her...Are you crazy"She said looking at me sideways. "No Kehlani talked to her and said that what she had to say was important, Look i'm just giving her a chance to explain herself" I said walking toward Billie who is now sitting up in the bed.

"Baby I love you but I don't trust her" She told me getting off the bed and meeting me halfway, wrapping me up in her arms. "I have I feeling she's gonna say some fuck shit, and I just want to protect you" She told me kissing my forehead. "I understand but i'm just gonna hear her out, and i'll tell you everything when I get back" I spoke trying to reassure her that everything will be fine.

I just got here and I texted Cierra and she said she was inside. So I walked in and saw her sitting at the table. "uh hey" She said kinda lowly "Hey so uh what is it you wanted to tell me" I said getting straight to the point. "Okay first I wanted to apologize for lashing out on you, It was not the right thing to do at all" She told me looking directly in the eyes but slowly retreated them. "I was upset when you told me that because I love you...I love you so much and you deserve so much more than Billie. I can give you the love that you deserve okay?" She told me while grabbing onto my hands raising her eyes to look at me.

"Cierra you know i'm with Billie and i'm extremely happy with her, I don't think of you in that way i'm sorry" I told her that letting go of her hands and shifting uncomfortably. "I know but I had to tell you, is it possible that we could still be friends?" She asked with a sparkle of hope in her eyes. "I'm sorry Cierra but I have to think about it" I told her honestly as I gathered my things to get in the car.

As soon as I got in the car I called billie and started driving. "Hey baby what's up?" She spoke into the car "You won't even believe what just happened" I breathed. "Aren't you supposed to be meeting up with Cierra?" She asked me "Yea she told me some crazy shit but i'll tell you when I get home" I said as I was turning onto the highway. "Okay see you when you get here love" She said back to me "Okay bye baby" I told her hanging up.

I turn into the driveway and hop out the car to unlock the door. I went upstairs to the bedroom and saw billie there laying in the bed watching tv. "Hi baby,i'm happy your home now tell me everything that happened" she said turning to look at me. "When I got there she was just sitting down she then apologized" I told her as she gave me her full attention. "And then she told me why she was upset her words exactly were 'I was upset when you told me that because I love you...I love you so much and you deserve so much more than Billie. I can give you the love that you deserve okay?'" As soon as those words came out my mouth I saw the anger in her face.

"She told you that you deserve better than me, and she's supposed to be better than me" She said starting to raise her voice. "I know and I explained to her that we're engaged and starting a family, and that I don't like her in that way" I told her trying to calm her down. "Baby i'm not trying to control you at all, but I don't want you talking to her anymore I knew she was going to do something fucked up" She told me wrapping her arms around me pulling me into a kiss.

"I'll think about it I mean I don't like her like that, but she's been my friend for forever maybe we'll just have to set boundaries" I said trying to reason with her. "Whatever it is you have to do do it, before I have to let her know that your mine. Your the mother of my future child, and my fiancé she needs to know her place" She told me surprisingly calm. "I've made it very clear to her that I want you and only you" I said pulling her into a passionate kiss. "Good" Billie whispered pulling me down to the bed.

Notes from author ~ I loves this is a long chapter and I took me like two days to write, i'm also thinking about writing another book tell me what you think byeeee 😌