Chapter -6 realization

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Instead of going to court . I went towards river side . My mind is exploding with the questions . When today krantikari girl asked me that I love bondita . Why it is so hard for me to deny her statement .
I told her that she is just my responsibility but I know ......................my heart knows that it is not  truth .
She is not just my responsibility . She is  everything to me . She is my life .  I can't live without her even for a second . My heart became restless until I see her. My day starts and ends at her name. I don't like anybody near her. I hate when any other boy come near her. Her tears always pierced my heart .  My heart only beats for her ...It's because...  Because .............
I......I .......... love her .....yes I do . I love her .
I love you bondita .. I love you so much and not from today.  It happened years ago but now I realized it . I kept denying the fact but I can't deny it anymore especially to myself .  I want to be honest with myself . It is the biggest truth that I love you bondita but I know my love has no aim it does not have any destination . I fall on my knees and Started crying hard . I can't let you bound in an unwanted relationship . I know I am not right choice for you . I am 10 years older than you . How could you ever thought of loving me .? It's not your choice and I will left you free when u will come to right age . I will not impose my love on you.  I want you to fly high in sky .
You will become an inspiration for others barrister babu bondita .

No Anirudh u don't have to cry . Wipe your tears . Your love can't come between  your bondita's dream . It's okay if she will choose someone else . I will be happy by seeing her happiness but tears again came in my eyes . I cried my heart out letting my pain out. Why it's so difficult ... Why it has to be like that . I wish I was of bondita's age . I wish I was right choice for her . But I am not ....
I am not .I kept crying sitting on  my knees ..... In the solace to let my pain out .

Bondita's pov
I went home after school today I deny Soham for studying together as krantikari didi is at home . I went inside the house . She was sitting near window .
" Ab kaise ho aap "( how are you now ) I asked her smiling ." Mai ab bilkul thik hu muje ab chalna chaiye Mere sathi intejar Kar rhe hoge '( I am totally fine now I should leave my partners must be waiting for me ) she told me and stand up" itne jaldi kya hai didi abhi toh patibabu bhi nhi Aaye unse Milkar Jana" (why are you in so Hurry even patibabu did not came yet u can leave after meeting him) I insisted her to stay . She agreed. We both sit together and chit chat randomly . After that I started preparing for dinner . She insisted me to help but I deny as her arm is still injured . I don't  know why but a different feeling erupted in  me after seeing krantikari didi . She is such a brave woman . She is working for our country  so selflessly . I also want to do something for my country . I want to help her in her mission but I don't think so patibabu will like my idea.
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Soham'pov
Today she denied me to come at  her home for studies . I know it must be her husband only .  He only have problem with me . I don't understand why  he is coming between us . I know bondita too liked me.  She could never love a man 10 years older than her .  I will not let anybody come between us, me and my bondita ... she is only mine...
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Today my mood is very sulky . I entered in house without making any noise . bondita is preparing food and talking to krantikari girl . I smiled sadly by seeing my girl ...my love but again my eyes brimmed with tears thinking that she can't be mine . I quickly wiped my tears .no anirudh Ur strong . Don't cry.
" Vaise didi kya Mai bhi aapki muhim Mai madad Kar sakte hu"( by the way didi could I also help you in your mission) bondita asked her. Anger started rising in me .what the hell!! I denied krantikari girl's offer because I don't want to risk her life . Here she itself want to join the gang .
Why even I told her about krantikari girl now her mind is working in different direction . I interputted before she can reply" bilkul nhi tum aise kisse muhim Mai hissa nhi loge " ( not at all u will not take part in any mission.) I yelled at her .
How could she just think like that . My whole life is dependent on her and she want to do risky things . I will never let her to do anything like that.  They both looked shockingly at me ." Bondita Anirudh shi keh Raha hai tumhe kisse muhim mai hissa Lene ki jarurat nhi tum padhke he desh ke liye bohut Kuch Kar sakte ho" ( bondita anirudh is right u do not need to participate in some mission u can do a lot for our country by studying )
She told bondita . Bondita gazed at the floor and nodd. Thank god ...  She denied her .I don't want any dangers near her. I sighed in relief. After that we have dinner and then krantikari girl left for her mission again . She is really a inspirational freedom fighter . I really respect her a lot .

Suddenly rain started coming and bondita run out of the house to enjoyed the Rain.  I tried to stopped her but as you now she became uncontrollable whenever rain comes .I followed her and gazed her while she enjoyed rain.

Her long hairs stick to her face

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Her long hairs stick to her face . Her saree get fully drenched exposing her
Unresistiable curves.  She is looking like a heavenly fairy . I can't take my eyes from her. Her slender waist , her milky white skin everything is just leading to make me crazy .  My harmones strated to make me insane .... She is a beauty epitome.  I can't resist her charm ...
But then I saw that bloody Soham was also staring from the window of his house at my bondita with such dirty looks . I want to punch hard on his face .
I quickly went and held her hand and dragged her inside the house .
" Patibabu kyu laye muje andar muje bahar Jana hai " ( patibabu why u brought me here I want to go out) she tried to leave but I pulled her towards me and she collides with my body with a jerk . Her wet body making my clothes wet too. Even though the weater is cool but I am feeling too hot.... her body is attached to my body like there is no space between us. I pulled her more close to me to feel her more.. ...
I can feel her hardened bosoms pressed to my chest . Her breathing became heavy . I leaned towards her . " Yeh....aap kya Kar rhe ....hai patibabu " ( what are you doing patibabu)she asked me nervously .I don't know myself . I just want to feel her more . My mind is not in control .I leaned more close to her . She closed her eyes .I  looked at her red plump lips which looks heavenly delicious . I moved towards them.....
" Bondita vo yeh tumhare Kitab " soham barged in the house . We separate with a jerk . Bondita was fully drenched and her saree has become transparent . She tried to hide herself but I hugged her to cover her ." Soham tum jao Yaha se abhi " I told to him angrily . Don't he have manners to knock before entering in somebody's home .he left stomping his foot . I broke the hug slowly  . She blushed looking down and left for taking bath . Did she also feels for me no anirudh . Don't give yourself false hope as it is not possible . How could you think to kiss her without her consent . I scold myself for getting carried by the moment . I will never force myself on her.. never...

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