Just wanted to vent

The pains of school

It can be any school, it doesn't have to be a certain school just to feel pain, and to be honest if you don't feel pain whilst putting up with everything and everyone you are really lucky. It feels like you can never do anything right anymore, the teachers setting way more homework than they should to put more pressure on us. Exams choosing our lifestyles and jobs.

The people.. the people can either make school worth going to or not wanting to ever set foot in one again. You will always get put down no matter what year/grade you are because no one cares enough to realise that they aren't the only ones that are suffering or they aren't the only ones that are trying to just make it in life and get friends. they all think being cool and horrible to others is a great way to get popularity and a friend group when really you just have to be you to make it in school and get an amazing friend group.

To me social anxiety makes everything even worse than it already is, it makes me feel like there is a black hole burning through my chest every time I have to speak in front of the class or just answer a simple question. I hate sitting at the front where everyone can stare at you. Leg bouncing all the time and feel embarrassed at everything, its shit and teachers still don't seem to understand that and yet they probably would have gone through some similar pain in their school life but yet they decide to give it to us.

Although even though this happens sometimes school can be enjoyable like when you get to sit next to your friends in a lesson or when the teachers allow you to do what you want if you get a supply teacher and they don't have a clue on what to do.

I shouldn't have to feel like this at a young age and either should anyone else at yet here we are, trying everything just to stay home and away from school even if that means lying to our friend or family members.