Bullied by O2L!!

gay??

When we finally get back to the house I went up to Connors room and knock. He wasn't in the so I invited myself in and sat on his bed waiting.

He was taking so long I decided to snoop do I was looking through everything and nothing interesting...of course.

Until I lift his pillow and there I see dried blood and a blade with red too on it. I then see a note and thee were only a few words on it.

'I'm sorry for what I did I will always love all you I just can't take the pain anymore... Please forgive me.
-Connor'

At that point I start to flip out. Im searching everywhere I can but no sight of Connor anywhere.

Then somebody bursts In and I freeze. "CONNOR!" I yelled running and hugging him. He pushed me away and I wiped he stray tears from my face.

"What are you doing in-" he began and saw the note and blade that was under his pillow which was now on the ground.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN ALL MY STUFF!??" He yelled grabbing it all away from me and putting it back where I found it.

"Connor I thought you were dead you scared me to death!" I said grinning from ear to ear.

He looked at me blankly and started shoving me out. " ya BC you looked through my stiff I don't even do this anymore how about you mind your own biasness and don't tell any of the boys about this?" He said grabbing my arm and pulling me out.

"Ouch Connor that hurts." I said gasping at the pain from him gripping my arm. He let go and looked from ths ark on my arm to his hands. Then ram back into the room taking the blade and notes out of my hands.

"Connor dont do anything stupid please I love you." I said not realizing what I just said. I guess Connor didn't with Because all I heard from him was a whisper yell.

I then opened the door. To see Connor string into the bathroom mirror with blood flowing out of his wrists like rivers.

He casually just wiped it up threw on a long sleeve shirt and pushed me back out again like nothing happened. I was just standing there when he walked back out.

"I'm sorry I guess I was just a little jealous please don't tell." He said I opened my mouth to say something but sam yelled up the steps first "Britt connor where are you"

"Coming." Connor said our eyes not moving off each other until he runs downstairs.

I slowly walk downstairs and see all the boys playing the Wii. I was greeted when Sam ran up and kissed ms on the cheek. I looked at Connor and saw him looking at me.

He quickly looked away and I smiled at Sam. "Hey." I whispered afraid if I said it louder I'd burst into tears. I did a slight smile so they wouldnt suspect anything.

I walked out into the beach and just sat there watching the waves crash at the shore. The next thing I know Connor came out and sat by me.

Wet just sat there in silence until I stood and held my hand out and he took it. He stood and hugged me. I started walking back turned to see Connor still out by the waves.

"You coming?" I asked and he smiled. "I need to think alone be in soon." He said smiling and shaking his head. I smiled and put a thumbs up.

When I walked in JC was cooking of course."I wanna taste!" I yelled walking over and taking the spoon or of his hand.

"Calm down is not even that good."he said chucking. "Ugh this is ducking amazing!!"I yelled making everybody else come in. So we all aye and Connor was still outside.

I was just about to go of when he walked inside. "I have something I have to talk to you about." He said coming inside and sighing.

We all nodded and he took a deep breath... he finally say down and that's when the words came out his mouth...

"I-i am...uh....I....I'm gay..." He said and everything when silent. I did not see that coming!! I thought he loved me? He kissed me... "W- what?" I whispered.