The thoughts of a black teenager

eight

You know the saying of "taking a walk in someone else's shoes" I think I've tried to place myself into a different mindset so many times that I've started to psych myself out

I would say that my mind plays tricks on me but I think that would turn into a never ending joke, I've always been scared of what people think of me which I think is part of the reason I'm in my head so much and starting to struggle with anxiety

I've placed myself even in positions with people I couldn't possibly understand pretty much anything to keep my mind out of my own head I would say that I'm disappointed but that would be an understatement sometimes you just don't want to deal with your own shit am I right or am I right

I've been pretty solid until today you ever have one of those days where you have such a dee conversation it feels as though you're either changing the subject or drowning in emotions and thoughts of solutions because same

Today I learned of some issues now I've become pretty religious and more than I was in the past got sure and I look at the Bible like it's new glasses that last longer than five seconds (another joke we'll slide past )

But I believe that marriage has a huge significance and even non religious readers can probably agree that marriage is solid like nothing comes before the person you're with they're your everything (besides god for me yk) but I've learned that in marriage your other members are so used to being number one they hate to make space what is worth vowing to spend the rest of your life with someone if you're never around to spend that life with

Now we all know I'm not an conquistador when it comes to things such as love or relationships and I know I have my own bias and perspective but I genuinely don't think that I'm wrong it's problematic at times I know but wow just wow

To see someone in a role and step into someone else's shoes to see the role that they have is quite disturbing so much so that I rather sit in my own head but only if it doesn't torment me when things get quiet

Why can't my family just be normal well even normal would push it for them so understanding at most imagine how much of the worlds problem could be solved if everyone would just listen to each other

We'd be fucking legends