How is my whole mood impacted by one person from my past, I've kept him in the past for a while but part of my new life is forgiving and moving forward.
But why am I upset that I couldn't hear your voice, or see how you're doing really. Study your features like usual watch your behavior to see what difference's I can pick out but also what I can already know based on our past.
I want to know the new you without me around, maybe then I'd let you go all together.
I care for you and I still want to wish you happy birthday but I have to let go more, it's not healthy for me
My sanity is already at risk and you're a stressor that increased my intrusive thoughts, it brought me back to a place of self harm, comparison and looking for a reliever much like I did in the past
I don't know what it is
But please let me grow from here,
The opposite of pumpkin </3
YOU ARE READING
The thoughts of a black teenager
Historia CortaMight as well call this a memoir of my life, all the real, boring and sad parts of me shoved in public for all eyes to see. Who am I, that's one secret I'll never tell You know you love me, xoxo (I couldn't help it)
