Angst
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'Fall already?' Suna thought as he stared at his bedroom window. Who knew it has been a year since he last saw Osamu.
Let's get into further details shall we.
September 30th
7:30 p.m.
"I'm breaking up with you"
"What?"
Suna's eyes widened by the words his lover said. Well not lover anymore, it's an ex now.
"I said what I said, I'm breaking up with you, Rin"
Suna could feel his heart aching. What? Why? Why is Osamu breaking up with me? Did I do something wrong?
"Look, Suna. I just don't think we're right for each other" Osamu had a face of disappointment.
Suna stayed quiet.
"I hate to admit this but, I fell in love with someone else"
Who? Why?
When? Where?
"I just can't look at you the same anymore" Osamu said grabbing Suna's arm, trying to comfort him.
"You're eyes, they don't sparkle the way they did before. You're personality, it's not attractive anymore. Nothing is"
Suna just stayed their dumbfounded, looking at the ground beneath him. He's trying to hold back tears. Still questioning himself, why? How did he let this happen?
"I can't see you the way I saw you before"
There it is, the words that shattered Suna's heart into pieces. The way I saw you before? How am I any different? Suna had it, he started crying. Crying every bit of pain he could felt. He couldn't hold it in anymore. Osamu doesn't love him, anymore.
"Why?" Suna said staring into Osamu's eyes.
"Who?" He's still crying.
"When?" He can't hold it in anymore.
"Where?" He's done.
"How?" He can't anymore.
"Suna" Osamu himself started tearing up.
"Why are you crying?" Suna said forcing a smile.
"When did it all go wrong?" Suna grabbed Osamu's sleeves.
"Who did you fall in love with?" Suna tightened his grip.
"Which part did I hurt you with?" Suna placed his head on Osamu's chest.
"Where did our love end?"
"Where did our love end, Osamu?"
"I don't know" Osamu gritted his teeth.
Silence. Suna loosened his grip on Osamu's sleeve. He backed away from Osamu. His eyes full of tears. He stared once again into Osamu's eyes.
The grey round eyes he fell in love with. The grey dyed hair that reminded of him of home. The soft lips he kissed. The soft cheeks he caressed. The fingers that played with his hair. The loving personality that made him happy. The person who he could fall in love with a thousand times more. The arms that held him tight, are finally letting go.
"I hate you" Were the final words before Suna decided to let go.
To let go of his love, his love to Osamu Miya.
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