the colleague thing

changes

After the Halloween party things were changing. We are going to leave soon to shoot some scenes elsewhere without most of the cast.

I am on set with Dodger, working on Chris' laptop with a beer in my hand when they come for their break.

"It's afternoon! You're already drinking?", Scarlett points out.

"There's a solar eclipse next month, and I just think it's a little unfair that the sun can black out on an afternoon and it's a beautiful occurrence, but when I black out on an afternoon it's a serious problem." I take a sip of my beer while locking eyes with her before continuing my work.

"Wow you're in good form today, huh?", Sebastian asks while he sits down. Margarita on his heels.

"Hun, what about we set you up an online dating profile, hm?", Scarlett asks, sitting next to me. "You're denying going out with anyone from the crew, so ... what do you think?"

I put my sunglasses in my hair and look at her.

"Oh yeah well about that... I did that and I'm always so confused when people say they can't find a boyfriend on those dating apps, like, it's the easiest thing to do there is finding a boyfriend! It's always someone else's boyfriend, but there's a lot of boyfriends on there, so... no thank you."

I finish my beer and put the bottle on the table, continuing my work.

"What are you even doing there?", she snatches the laptop away from my legs, looking at the open tabs of universities. "You're going to study?"

Chris raises his head to look at me. "You do?"

I shrug my shoulders. "I was just thinking about my options... informing myself and things, you know?"

"What's on your list to study?", he asks, sitting down now and grabbing a sandwich.

"Maybe something with animals, you love them." Sebastian says, his eyes meet mine.

I shake my head. "Maybe acting, because at this point you all think that I'm emotionally stable and I really believe that deserves an Oscar."

I get up, putting the sunglasses back on my nose. "I'm going for a walk. Come here, Dodger."

I take the leash and walk off with him while I take him on the leash.

--

After the walk I snuggled up in Chris' trailer and look at the stars on the ceiling. I feel lonely. There was no one else since Sebbi the last years. But he obviously wants her and not me.

I rub my face and sigh, burying my face in Dodger's fur when Margarita storms in the trailer.

"Amara? Please, I... I need your help. Sebastian, he's... he locked himself in his trailer and I think he's having a panic attack. I... I can't help him..."

I hug Dodger, taking a deep breath before sitting up, looking at her. She's really desperate for him. She really loves him. And he chose her to be happy.

"Can you please come and help him?"

"You need to reassure him. He needs that. Just... you have to help him seeing himself different. That's all. Now hush, get out. You got this." I lay back down and hug Dodger again, continuing staring at the ceiling.

I hear footsteps then the door closing.

Chris was right. I shouldn't have hooked up with Sebastian. He was right all along.

--

The set of "The Winter Soldier" is now two years ago.

Chris moved back to Boston and I got on a university. I don't know what Sebastian did, but through the news I heard he and Margarita split up not long after the shooting. I did not call him, and he didn't call me.