Where you belong

Where you belong chapter 5

Chapter 5 Where you belong.

　

My eyes popped open, as soon as the thought hit my brain. Right in front of me, in that watchful chair sat not the expected security guard, but the kind nurse from before. I swallowed hard, my mouth completely dry, the parch reaching into my throat, I tried to swallow, but ended up coughing. The nurse took notice and jumped up approaching near. She hadn't gone to me like I thought she would, but instead went and fetched me a glass of water, she poured and handed it to me. I gulped savoring the cool wetness as it quenched all the way down to my soul it seemed. I had finished so quickly I hadn't known it was gone until I tipped it completely up and nothing came out, my tongue snaking out to collect, but coming up empty.

"I'll get you some more, honey. It's a nasty side affect from the narcotics." she said softly as she took my cup and refilled it handing it back. Again it was gone to soon. I opened my eyes and swallowed trying to feel and clear my throat, before I spoke to her.

"Why are you here?" I asked hoarsely. My question seemed to have caught her off guard although she had to have been expecting it, hadn't she? Her face scrunched up as if she had been taken a back, and I quickly thought that maybe I had spoken a bit more harshly than I had intended too. But all things considered, I didn't let that show, I don't give a flying fuck she was apart of that resistance, the people who held me against my will, drugged me, and ignored me and my cries for help over my stolen baby. My stolen baby, my heart felt as if it had been stabbed, just thinking that horrible thought and my breath caught, chest heaved out and a small sob escaped. I didn't want this lady to see me falter like that, I had to be strong, I was alone and only had myself that much was very, very clear.

I had to reel myself in and fast, one more outburst like that and I'm back to reminiscent land with my father and the heavy corpse inducing drugs.

I steeled myself up and met her eyes again, "You don't have to do that, not with me. Your safe for now," she said. My face scrunched from shocked, to WHAT? To wanting to kick her ass in about two seconds flat, "What the hell did you just say to me? I'm safe? Safe? And my baby is she safe? If by safe you mean drugged to where I don't even exist, my baby being stolen, taken from right out from under me without so much as a goddamned batted fucking eyelash, and chained to this fucking bed with a catheter and heavily guarded by security guards, then yeah I'm SO FUCKING SAFE! FUCK OFF BITCH!" I screamed at her, and she hadn't said a word, her eyes crinkled at my vehemence, and she took a heavy step backwards. She closed her eyes on a unsteady exhale and tuned on her heels and left my room without so much as another word.

Then the security guard walked in and assumed his place, there in his blue hard plastic chair. I felt the familiar scowl creep onto my face, and I stared on at him, picking up his Maxim magazine, flipping to the same old warn picture of the same girl and gawking for hours, until now. He turned his gawk to me, he wore a nasty look on his face and I wasn't sure if it was from reaction to my scowl, or something else but I began to feel incredibly uncomfortable. Incredibly. I averted my eyes staring down, at the only thing I could-my chest. And I stayed like that for sometime but I still felt his creepy gaze boring into me, I kept shuddering, my body shaking from the creep of it all and the cold.

I had no idea what day it was or how long I've been like this it was killing me. Everything was killing me, nothing made sense, how could any of this be happening? How could it? Without a shit load of intervention, thought out-well thought out plans, but that wasn't the most important question. No that was this; what the hell was I going to do about any of it? Well the answer for now is not a damn thing. I'm 16 years old, just had a baby, my fathers an addict/alcoholic and completely absent and useless. In fact I'm most positive this is all because of him but how? There's no way he's smart enough, and if he is he's not alone.