From distraction to attraction / Timothee Chalamet

Part 9 - not perfect

warning drug abuse
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"Is he okay? Nicole is he okay?"' i say with anxiety
"he is fine come in darling"'Nicole gives me a hug. There I see him laying in his bed, looking at me like a puppy. "Maya? I can explain I-" i cut him off by hugging him and crying. "Timmy I was so scared don't do this ever again" i say crying into his chest. "Mom can you leave so I can talk to Maya" Timothee says to his mother. She nods and leaves his room.
"Timothee i saw the news what the fuck is it true?" I ask him confused with a little hope that its not true. How could Timothee my Timothee gotten into hard drugs like that?
"Maya I don't know how to explain this, its true" i stand up and slap my hands to my face. I walk around his room "how many times did you do it and why would you and not even telling me?!" i say shocked.
"it gives me this feeling of euphoria and happiness, Im clean now don't worry it was a one time thing" he says. "one time?!" i scream "okay well three or four times" he mumbles.

Its been some Month

Timothee was clean, it was a long progress to get him clean, I was tired of it but he was clean finally. and our relationship was better then ever. I loved this guy, tomorrow was our 1 year anniversary and he had a surprise for me, well thats what he said. It was 7pm and I was ready to go, I wore a red velvet dress and some small hoops with some black heels. I took my purse as someone knocked on the door. My Timothee standing there with my favourite flowers and a big smile on his face.
I put the flowers in some water and Timothee takes me by his hand to his car, he drives us to a restaurant with a amazing view over the whole city.
We order food, talk even tho we've been dating for a year now Timothée was still flirty with me. I loved it. He payed and then went to the restroom , I've been wait for 5 minutes now. What takes him so long? I knock on the mens restroom and open the door.

Are you kidding me?

Maya wait

There he was In the restroom taking drugs, I think it was crystal meth. So he lied to me, he was never sober. I loved him but I just couldn't handle it anymore it was too much for me. I said it, on our anniversary.

Timothee its over, I will always love you, but I can't anymore its too much for me.

Timothee starts crying and grabs my face with his hands.
"don't Maya" he cries. "I cant look you in the eyes Timothee, your high" i say with tears dropping down my cheeks. "i love you maya" he sniffs

"its over" i say as i leave once again.

its over
its over
its over
its over

i say to myself thousands of times, still crying.