Vampire Knight: Zero's Love

I can't believe her

         I lead him away and we are walking through the courtyard-like garden. I can feel my anger with every step I take. I don't want Zero to see how mad i am so i try to slow down, but when i do....I start to feel depressed and confused. In  a way I want to be alone but in another way, i just want him to hold me tight and tell me what i want to hear. Would he do that for me? I slow my pace until i end up stopping. I can feel my hair cover my face as I let my head go down.I stood there for a few seconds and then i feel the hand i has holding disappear.i felt a wave of sadness and shame wash over my body. Suddenly i feel myself get wrapped up into someone's warm and caring arms. Surprised, i look up to see Zero holding me tight. I wrap my arms around his, keeping him close. I could feel myself wanting to cry.I put my head back down and I could feel the tears building up in my eyes and a burn in my throat. I hear a soft and caring voice whispering in my ear saying,"Its alright. Im here...I got you.....Nothing can come between us, no matter what or who tries, they cant." I could feel myself unable to hold myself back from crying. I start to cry in his arms and he hugs me tighter. He then opens his arms a little so i could turn to face him and I do. I cry into his chest and he hugs me tight. Halfway through my crying, he Picks me up and carries me where im still crying towards him but this time my arms are around his neck and im crying into his shoulder. He walks us to my dorm and I end up falling asleep from crying so much. He gently lays me down on my bed and Kisses my forehead. I can feel him pull the blanket over me. I fall into a deep sleep... It feels like a nightmare. Its cold and damp where i am. Theres a misty fog and the air feels humid.  I can see yuuki make her way between us and take him from me. She turns him against me by setting a bunch of things up. He doesnt believe me and Just listens to her. He hates me and he wont even look at me anymore. "I hate you, I dont ever want to see you again...Next time I do. Im going to kill you" I hear him say. Tears build up  in my eyes and i cant breath. i am suffocating and I feel like my throat is on fire. My heart feels so alone and I feel as if my world has been completely shattered. I awake to see that im in my room. I do not see zero. My pulse is quickened and tears fall down my face. "Zero?" I say in a shaky voice as I look around the room. I get up and look at the clock, its still dark but the sun lightly starts to bleed through the windows blinds. There is no sign of Zero at all.  I get up off my bed and look through the house calling his name.  No response. I wipe the tears out of my eyes and I look in the mirror that the headmaster replaced for me. I look at my face and then down my body.  I see how much we look alike, and I feel my hand clench Into a fist and I try to clear my head of all these bad thoughts. Zero loves me, not her.... He wouldn't leave me to see her last night... Would he? No.  He would never do that.  Not to me.  My hand goes back to not bring so tightly closed and I look over to the window. I look at the sky and then down at everyone. As I look at where the other students are, I see Zero. My heart sinks for a moment but feels relieved that he wasn't with Yuuki.  He turns to the side and smiles.  Wait... He barely smiles at other people. Who is he smiling at?  I see a blur of brown hair move up and then down. With her arm locked with his. I lean a little closer to see the brown haired girl to be Yuuki. I start to cry and turn away from the window. I cry into my pillow and all I can think about Is how much I hate myself. I blame myself for what happened and for not being good enough for him.  after a few minutes of crying I walk over to my mirror, my eyes red from crying and I look at myself. My hands turn into fists and I can something warm lightly go down my fingers.  I release them and lightly touch my hand over myself on my mirror.  Blood shows the signs of where my hand were.  "I just lost him....  The one I love... More than anything..." I say to myself with my voice shaking.  I hurry up and get ready.  I look at the blood stained mirror one last time before I leave and think, 'He can smell my blood...  I know he can' and I leave. I dont want to go to class. So I skip class and walk around the garden for while thinking about everything.  I cant believe he left me for her...  But in a way...  I knew he could never love someone like me. I tense up when I hear some voices on the other side of the garden wall. Everyone Is supposed to be in class, so who could it be?  I hear the 2 voices talking and I listen carefully to identify the voices.  "I have to go back! Something isn't right. " I hear the male voice say.  I lightly gasp a little and whisper, "zero? " what is he doing here? That means the girls voice that I heard was Yuuki's. What is he doing here alone with her?  Why not tell me that he doesn't want to be with me?  And why leave me to be with her all day and probably all night? Why is he doing this? Why now...?