When love lasts

Chapter 2 - The 5 minute chat

TW- Mental health, mentions of the shooting, death and drugs.

"I'll get you your results shortly" The young doctor said as she slotted the elderly patients files into the holder and joyfully walked off to the he nurses station; where she leant on the counter to start a conversation with her friend. "Hey Chloe, have you seen Kian around? I'm due in theatre with him, in 10"

The young, Scottish doctor looked up to her friend "Sorry Nick, I haven't, I'll keep an eye out though"

"Not like Kian to just disappear" Nicky questioned; trying to work out where he would be.

"Maybe try the consultants office? There was a cardiac patient on Keller as well, so he might be there?" Chloe advised, as she continued to type up some emails.

"Okay great, I'll check there. Thanks Chlo" She gratefully said, before she hastily walked off to the consultants office.

She peeped her head round the open door. Nothing. She sighed before resuming her route to Keller, but it wasn't long until she came across a familiar figure. Was that? Kian? She thought to herself, as she crept towards the curled up figure; who was sobbing in the stairwell.

Yes. It was him. He was tightly curled up in the corner, quietly crying to himself. "Kian?" She quietly said, as she knelt down beside him.

As soon as he was noticed, he swiftly wiped his eyes and sat up straight. "Oh uh hey Nick"

"What's up? Why are you crying?" She put a hand on his shoulder.

"Don't worry its nothing" he replied, trying to excuse himself from the conversation.

"Kian.....tell me what's wrong"

He just stared at the floor, not really knowing whether to her or not.

"What ever it is, I wont judge, I wont hate you, I wont tell anyone, I just want to help. In any way I can, even if it is just a 5 minute chat"

He gradually lifted his head and sadly looked into his eyes "I destroy people Nicky"

"How?"

"Bea.....Vanessa.....Jac was right to run away.....I would've destroyed her too"

"You don't destroy people, what happened to Vanessa was devastating....then having to go through that again...I couldn't even begin to imagine what you must still be feeling. And as for Jac...she left because of the trauma that irrelevant, selfish, violent idiot caused for her"

He thought for a moment, before replying "I brought Remi to the hospital. SJ was my drug dealer, my fault"

"No don't blame yourself, you love Jac. It was obvious how much you loved her from the very beginning, and I'm sure u still love her. So of course everyone (including Jac) knows you would never put her at risk"

He stayed completely silent, before she held her hand out to him "Come on, lets get you back to the ward"

He smiled; grateful that his friend was there to help him, even in the worse of times, she was always there. But was that enough?

- by Ashleigh ( @holby_nadani ) -