Corrupted Dreams

Sasha

        Sasha has the tendency to push people away. we've been together for 3 years and she still tries pushing me out of her life. you'd think she'd know that I'm never leaving. she managed to get her mother out of her life. her siblings and all her friends. I'm all she has left. there's no way in hell that I'm ever leaving her. she surely is the love of my life, with or without flaws.

        Sasha gets intense nightmares. she calls them night terrors, i call them hell. they devastate me. think of it this way. someone you love and care about so much is suffering in another reality and there is nothing you can do for them. she tells me to shake it off (much like Taylor Swift) but i just can't. its too hard to bare with her in pain.

        she might push me away and make me endure her situation but i know that she loves me too. you see with Sasha shes stubborn and won't give you what you want. nor will she tell you what you want to hear, but she has ways of telling you without speaking or doing anything. its quite amazing actually. she tells me she loves me by looking at me with her bright green eyes. she'll look at me until i look away. then she comes closer to me and gets up in my face. she kisses my forehead and leaves. it might not mean much to you, but to me its a drug.i love when she does it.

        Sasha is a much different person than anyone I've ever met. one of the reasons I'm not willing to give up on her. she wont give in but neither will i. there are some people in the world worth sacrificing for. Sasha is one of those people.

        I'm hoping one day i can find someone equally as amazing as Sasha to help her through this difficult time in her life.