Andy listened intently as I quietly told him everything that had happened
earlier between me and Evan, and about our conversation afterward at
breakfast.
"If you're upset with anyone, please don't be upset with Evan. Be upset
with me. I'm the one who should have stopped it." I said.
Andy sat quietly looking across the room and out the window for a few
minutes. He had no discernable expression on his face. My chest began to
hurt, and I felt my eyes watering, the longer he sat looking out the
window.
"I'm sorry Andy! I never meant to hurt you!" I said, as a tear escaped my
eye and ran down my cheek.
"I know," he said, turning and looking at me "and I understand. Don't cry.
You didn't really do anything wrong. I'm not hurt by what happened,
although I'm not happy it happened either. I've been expecting it would
though. You and Evan have become very close. You're like brothers.
Almost as much like brothers as you and Jacob are, or you and Harry. I
feel like a brother to Jacob and Harry as well. So I understand that
feeling. And we both have sex with both of them. So I understand those
feelings too. It only follows that if you and Evan have become that close,
that it would only be a matter of time before you two started having sex,
in a brotherly way. That's assuming of course Evan is gay or bi, which
I've felt for some time he is. The only problem I really have with this is
that I wonder if Evan's feelings for you stop at mere brotherhood, or if
possibly he's hiding that he has romantic feelings for you. In honesty,
the only part that really bothers me about what happened, was when he
tasted your cum. A lot of gay guys wouldn't eat another guy's cum, unless
they have feelings for the guy. I know you tasted his too, but I know you
only love him like a brother. I know you do feel close enough to him to do
that though. But I also get that you did it to see his reaction. I'd have
probably done the same thing myself. Anyway, I have to wonder. Since Evan
tasted your's too, does this mean that Evan is more than just a lonely,
horny, sexually confused boy? Are his feelings for you only brotherly?
They may run deeper. Of course I might be wrong. I hope I am. I like
Evan a lot too John, and I don't want him to get hurt either."
"Wow!" I said, "I thought you'd be more upset."
"Well, you did take it a bit further in the shower than I would've liked,
but like I said, I've been expecting something like this to happen sooner
or later." Andy said.
