All About Kin Ryan !

HIS STORY TIME PART 1🦋

KIN RYAN'S POV

"I just want you guys to know that..in this world,there's one person called Kin Ryan..and he can make it, why can't you?"

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I got into top high school in the region, in the area. Incase if you don't know the top high school how iszit like..
In the high school, everyone studies. Even before the sementer/ before the school term starts, everyone starts studying before that. You don't even know what the teacher gonna teach, they just know, cuz there are nerds.
Everyone just want to compete against each other just to study, with their grades.

"What does good grades means? What does bad grades mean?"

When I got into the school and got my first fail..like really low grade, doesn't mean that I was stupid..no..like after a few years..I got top straight in my class and it doesn't mean that I was smart..no as well..
You know after getting the top grade, I started to doubt..I started to question myself. I'm studying all of this..will I use them in the future?
Chemistry..will I use them?maybe. Physics..there are kind of useful..but will you use all of this equation things?maybe not..not that useful for me.

"So, I started to think, if I get bad grades or if I could get good grades..it doesn't prove any values of me"

I'm lost..I don't know what to do..I was like BOOM. Everyone kept telling me that you should study, the society, your school, your family, teachers, classmates..everyone just focus on studying. Especially in this environment like that..top school. Everyone just study, study, study and they don't even have time for themself.

"Studying is not for me, for real..I like learning but I learning through exploring things not sitting in the class"

And then I started to skip doing my homework and I started to sleep in class for real..I just slept in every lesson..until the point my teachers got mad..they called me out..
They said: "Why are you acting like this? You are such a bad student..How can you do this? Everyone is not like this, take a look at your classmates."
Doesn't mean that I don't do homework, I'm a bad student..But don't forget one thing..I got really good grades..I kept on getting good grades.
But then one day my teacher asked me : Is there anything happen in your life? Like my family? and I said no. So I told the teacher I lost direction, I lost live in my life..I don't know what to do..I got good grades..what changes my life? Nothing Changes.

"I work so hard in this High School, for 6 years and in order to get into a good Universities and then get a nice degree for 4 years. Which means that I worked so hard for 6 years in order to works harder for 4 years and after getting graduated from universities..you know what I do? I get a certificate right? So I use this very nice, fancy certificate to go to the society and get a good job and work for my entire life. Is that what I want? NO."

So I told my teacher "I lost my direction..I didn't want life like this, I don't find the value of studying anymore"
You probably think your teacher should probably cheer you up or something?No.. But my teacher said to me one thing : "Promise me that you're getting into universities eventually"..yes I promise her..
Yeah I still kept getting good grades..But getting good grades means you're good at some subjects, it doesn't prove that winner or loser. Some people there are just talented in different ways, some people are talented in arts and you forced him to study chemistry..of course its not gonna do it..that's why I didn't know what to do.
I lost my motivation. I became so lazy, maybe its just an excuse for me to be lazy. But I changed from this kind of nerd in to the best student in class.
After graduation, I just took a trip, a backpack to somewhere that no one knows me because I have to find the values of my life, the purpose of my living , of my existence..it sound so cringe but I really did go for that.
Because life is so short, I don't want to end my life in that way..that is so ordinary I worked like other people..all the people in this society 24/7 and then worked like walking dead..like a cow with no life just working and doing something that u never enjoy.
And then I gave up everything, I quit universities..I quit it twice.I almost became a loser and homeless and I didn't have a certificate..Nothing.
I started YouTube because I had no choice..and now I'm doing something that I like..I'm trying to get my dream come true at least I'm doing something that can make my life interesting..I'm not here to tell you guys that studying is useless, I'm not here to tell you guys that studying is for loser or something.

"I'm here to tell you that..Studying is not for everyone..If you are not the one who get good grades in class..If you don't like studying, if you feel stupid because of your grades..hear me out ok? It really doesn't mean anything..it prove nothing of your values".

"Life is so short, if you feel hopeless or useless..try to find something that you're good at and make it big..and then one day you can make a living out of it."

"I like music. I'm trying to do music for my living, I'm trying to make a living out of it..its hard..YA..I'm still on my way..YA..But I can see hope because I TRIED."

All my friend, all my classmates..most of them are doing things that they don't like and they don't enjoy..and I don't want compare myself to them..because achievement is something different..some people is happy working in the office..some people is satisfy working as an engineer. Its not good to compare my achievement or their achievement.
But I really proudly to say something like I don't regret anything I did in the past..I'm on the right track..I feel like and I'm still gonna achieve my dream..And I hope it can come true..
I want to prove to people that studying is not the only thing in this world..yes its important..yes..because you get knowledge, you meet people..you know how to socialize..just school and studying they give you alot.

"If I didn't study..how the hell could I know that studying is not for me..right? If I didn't tried that how the hell would I find music..Incase if you still don't have any direction..keep studying just don't keep quit it..but at the same time try to develop something so it can fit you one day."

"Life is so hard, as I always said but you only live once".

I literally changed from a nerd to a daydreamer..I think its a big move already..All my family, school, classmates they tried not to be that discouraging but they still said something like "Its really hard ryan, you need to get ready that you would lose everything and you would be a homeless or something".they are right..right? But this is not how you should talk to a daydreamer because what they need is motivation and alot of support ..What I got was barely any support, I worked everything out myself..it was so tough and it was so hard..But I still made it step by step, little by little..I'm still climbing..ya..I'm still trying to go further..I can see the light over there..I can see where I want to go..I really hope that one day that I can be more successful and I can be big enough to tell you guys..like thru a ted talk or a meeting in real live.

"Do things that you like..really..I don't want you to regret when you grow older..I just want you you guys to know that..in this world, there's one person called Kin Ryan and he can make it, why can't you?"

He is just like any other people out there..but he is trying to make his life extraordinary..he's an ordinary person as well..But just he tried..thats why things are different right now.
The high school life and everything is, was just the beginning of my life. Then I met alot of different people in my life that changed the opinion or the way I see this world. And they also literally changed my life. For example..
In Australia I was going on a bagpack trip..And I met a grandpa and he changed my life by treating me differently.
Its just so crazy..My life is so crazy..There's alot of crazy things happening all the time.

"Remember you only live once, so treasure the time."

(Part 2 Coming Soon)